General metaphysical principles behind skin rashes

[Bring4th_Austin]

I'm pretty sure the skin corresponds to yellow ray. It is the barrier that separates what we perceive to be as the "self" from all that is perceived as other than the self.

The symbolic gestures that has helped me immensely relate to removing a lot of chemical toxins from my environment. I think it's effective to try to eat organic, avoid harsh chemical cleaners and fragrances and other endocrine disrupters. Though, this is harder than it sounds - just watched The Human Experiment on Netflix, it doesn't paint an optimistic picture about the toxic triggers in the environment.

Now I feel like this belongs in the other thread, lol. But I think my point here is that even small, simple gestures that show care for the self in a harsh environment might help, regarding the irritated integument.

That's very interesting Jade, thank you for the thoughts. The concept of skin being a barrier to the outer world resonates. I see yellow ray as a "barrier" of sorts, the seat of the persona, that interface with the social world. Spiritual evolution allows us to shape this barrier to represent our more genuine and true self, so that we can interface with society in a way that is both genuine and effective. And I am quite conscious of yellow ray distortions that I have - I feel very uncomfortable in the "social world" (outside of the Law of One and L/L Research) because of my social identity. Not just my job (though that certainly is a big part of it), but simply my spiritual beliefs and interests. I do not broach my true beliefs and perspectives in discussions with people out of fear of judgment, and in the midst of discussions with others, I often feel incredibly uncomfortable because I feel as though I have something significant to contribute, but opt not to. This is compounded by my general social awkwardness and shyness.

Suggestions of small gestures for the self to represent care in a harsh environment seems like an effective means of addressing how one might feel within a harsh environment. I think it would be effective for me to try to address this emotional aspect more directly as well.

Thank you.

I know that doesn't really relate to your stranger experience, it does sort of meld with Jades "yellow ray - self" suggestion I think though. Your discomfort in your own skin could be a rejection of self... maybe, I'm not exactly sure what you felt.

Are you sure the old catalyst was fully processed until the emotional charge was gone? Lots of this stuff gets stored.
What would happen if the exact scenario presented itself again?

Would it inspire the same feelings? If so its not dealt with fully.
If not perhaps just acknowledging how far you have come would be enough to release it?

This gave me some food for thought. The catalyst was processed in a specific scenario - I felt comfortable removing barriers among a group of people. But this was a unique and foreign experience. In my everyday life, with my everyday friends, there is a feeling of discomfort among them. I feel uncomfortable opening up primarily because they are just reflecting my own insecurities and self-rejection back at me. I don't think that I reject myself in a personal way, but I do reject myself in how my job and interests fit in with society.

Thank you for the help.

I’m gonna have a go at this, but it might be a little difficult to explain. I can only convey it through explaining my own “mindset” these days…. although I don’t think it comes from the mind, I sense it has its origin elsewhere… lol… I knew this was going to be difficult to explain, but let me attempt it anyway.

A philosopher I listen to often, said one day “pretend you’re dead, then you have nothing to lose”. He said it in a certain context of course, almost as an afterthought, maybe for anyone listening who might not have “understood” what he was trying to convey. It was a pedagogical trick, if you may, but it worked.

I’m going with what you said with regard to being uncomfortable in certain situations, which of course applies to all of us at some point or another. The talk mixed in Taoism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Zen, Christianity… all of it, but I knew what he meant, it kind of hit me. Something in this has to do with faith, that much misunderstood concept, which for me personally is almost the “holy grail” in the Ra material. On my first read of it, I could not understand why they said to Carla “There is no necessity for negative thought-forms regardless of pain distortions.” I thought to myself… how on earth is that even possible? Needless to say, it made a huge impression on me, and I thought of it often.

I’m not sure exactly if it is just a culmination of everything I have ever read, contemplated, meditated upon, insights I had, all my experiences, all the messes I got myself into, all the dead-ends… hearing the same mysterious things over and over again, rattling about in my head and then finally falling into place…

It’s a complete letting go, and it’s the most freeing thing in the world. It’s faith, or at least the closest I have come to it. I don’t know if I’m making any sense, you know that these things can’t be explained in words. Words are just so inefficient and clumsy. Even rereading what I have written so far, I can see I’m not getting it across. I don’t know if it’s the “void” that you so often encounter in Eastern religions, but it’s almost a complete disregard for the self, and “disregard” is the best English word I can think of. I know it’s what Buddha meant with “detachment”, and even detachment is a poor word choice.

You pretend you don’t exist, you’re already dead, and you lose all attachment to outcome. Nothing is serious anymore, nothing matters. “Gain” or “loss” is all the same, illusory… He gave the advice to Westerners specifically, because it’s so difficult for Westerners to grasp the concept.

Joel Goldsmith once tried to convey the same concept in one of his talks “all the silver in the world is mine”. There can be no ownership. You are the Creator, and the creator is all, every single one, then ownership is the strangest concept, because all is “owned” by all.

It’s maybe the last few months that these changes started happening in me. It’s a complete letting go, nothing is serious. I am doing something at the moment (starting a new company), and everything just flows, there are no obstacles in the road. Sometimes it amazes me. How can it be this easy? I just smile and say thank you... you, me, everyone... let's play. I just do what I do, without regard to outcome. Death is not serious to me, not my own or anyone else’s. I just let go… is that faith? It’s all a game to me, I came here to play. When I go into situations which previously would have made me tense, there is just nothing there, because I’m “dead”. I see how people worry, and I wish I could convey to them “this thing”. I try, and I fail. There is no place to hide, but you don’t need to hide.

Some mornings I wake up, and I have this “sensation”, I can only describe it as freedom. Guilt has fallen off me, there is no past, no future. It feels so good. I tried to explain it to my friend who shares my apartment with me, and she looked at me as if I was crazy. But even as the words came out of my mouth, I knew I was messing it up. It’s ineffable. I trust myself, I trust others, I trust the world… The sensation dissipates gradually as the morning goes on.

It’s a complete letting go, Austin. It’s maybe “faith”, what do I know? I can only guess you’re holding on to something maybe, a certain desire, a certain outcome. Do what you do for the love of it, and let the chips fall where they may. Stop worrying, this is a benevolent universe.

I have kind of been putting myself out there with this post, I don’t know if it will make any sense. It comes and goes at this point, when it comes, and I want to grasp it, it slips away, and when I let go, it returns...

It seems you are addressing that realm of spirituality that words (especially English words) tend to fall short of. But don't worry, I'm pretty sure I grasped your message, and I really appreciate it. Describing faith as the "holy grail" seems very apt. Ra equated faith and intelligent infinity, and it is that contact with intelligent infinity that I think we, as spiritual seekers, are really seeking.

But faith has always been a confounding issue for me, and your words help me to see it from yet another perspective. "Pretend you are dead" is sort of like a grimmer way of saying "all is well." When you are dead, the self cannot be affected by any outer circumstance. It takes a sort of illusory death to really inhabit the mindset that "all is well," because the self that is affected by outer circumstance has to fall away.

I think your great post ties into what I was talking about regarding discomfort of the social identity. It is an illusory self that worries about what other people think, and that specific illusory self is tied with my social identity. It would be an act of faith for me to share my genuine self more openly - or even just be comfortable with the concept of sharing (because the opportunity to actually share this stuff is pretty rare).

If I were dead, would I care that people knew I was into weird UFO and alien spirituality? Would I care that my scientifically-minded friends were scoffing at my spiritual beliefs? No  .

This catalyst isn't something new to me. I've been aware of it and have talked about it at length. If that is the underlying root of the rashes, then I think it's just a sign that all of the talking about it isn't really helping. Perhaps the new avenue of applying faith to the situation, knowing that sharing openly, honestly, and without hesitation can't really have any negative effects on me, despite how people may react. That's a great quote, “There is no necessity for negative thought-forms regardless of pain distortions.” Maybe my pain distortions that are creating negative thought-forms are a social pain. I mean, it's realistic that people might judge me for what I believe and what I do, but that judgment may be akin to the physical pain. Allowing that to affect me is not having faith that genuine and open sharing is the best thing to do.