Seeking advice on spiritual development

[auntiemable]

Hello, I would say that you really need to meditate daily even if you just set aside time for 15 minutes a day, it'll help. Perhaps just meditate on positivity or peace or happiness. Negativity is a tough burden to bear and is equally difficult to overcome. That may just be what you're here to learn. Maybe start with something small like smiling at people as they walk past you in the hall or when a negative thought surfaces, reframing it into a positive or loving thought. Even just stating that it's going to be a wonderful day when you wake up in the morning might help. You don't have to let it all go at once (and I don't think it'll be possible).
I have a friend that is very positive, but she has to work at it. She posts little 'blurbs' all over the house to remind herself to be positive. "I am a good person." "I am happy and healthy." etc. It's a gradual, long term thing that over time will become easier.
Good luck to you on your journey. Peace, love and happiness!