07-06-2017, 08:09 PM
Yeah I understand intellectually. My problem however is not that I don't like it, it's how horrible it makes me feel. I feel like a torrent of pain. It can't be normal to be that much disturbed by such a benign thing, even more something that makes other people happy. I do am excessively sensitive to sounds though.
And I definitely think it relates to the food I cannot put in my mouth. The music is something that I realized over time but the food is going back to as far as I remember. Surely there is an unconscious emotional trigger related to that that I am not aware of. I wish to be free of such emotional turmoil when it arises.
Sure we don't all like the same food but I have grown up not liking an absurd quantity of stuff. Some of them I have overcome over the years, but how can I feel so bad about some of them instead of just them not being my favorite? I don't wish to hate the taste of something or the sound of something, it just happen, what's the emotional connection that tie them together?
And I definitely think it relates to the food I cannot put in my mouth. The music is something that I realized over time but the food is going back to as far as I remember. Surely there is an unconscious emotional trigger related to that that I am not aware of. I wish to be free of such emotional turmoil when it arises.
Sure we don't all like the same food but I have grown up not liking an absurd quantity of stuff. Some of them I have overcome over the years, but how can I feel so bad about some of them instead of just them not being my favorite? I don't wish to hate the taste of something or the sound of something, it just happen, what's the emotional connection that tie them together?