06-28-2017, 01:48 AM
so many thoughts arise from your words...
it's very difficult and yet sanity producing to read your 'state' - because I can SO relate - and the pain of being a 'creature' is so weird isn't it...!
having a flesh body affixed in time and space - being the only one inside this body... being an alien from a trillion somethings away
the isolation - the sometimes terrifying /glitch/ of 'existing' like THIS - and - in this (seemingly arbitrary "here and now")
I live with the itch to not continue being 'here'
(I'm very cross with my pre incarnate Self/SMC/whatever that has put mySelf into this awful world/time with a veil so strong and loneliness, betrayal, deprivation, and psychic and physical agony that makes so little sense (with the supposed best answer for all of it - that it's "creator experiencing itself" and "learning" etc....) (like - blerrrr.... eff off!)
I live daily as a near total orphan - family estranged (and abusive), forever single, friends far away in other parts of a big country....
the only thing keeping me alive is sobriety, ssri's, good food, my 2 sweet funny guinea pigs - and watching whales and dolphins out my windows
there better be a massive welcome home when I die... and the hardest part? loving this world (in parts) also... so don't want to leave the parts that I do care about
if it helps at all thankyou for your words - you're more understood than you might think...
if you'd like Usui Reiki sent to you let me know... it would be like a small gentle 'mind meld' (between you and the ALL THAT IS) and may provide some soothing for you...
nature has a quiet and massive healing - can you BE in nature somewhere? nature is also 'non human' and may speak to you and comfort you on a very deep level way beyond words, ideas, and in a different resonance to the human psychology overlay that can jar with alien souls...
even sitting next to a plant or fire/candle... Nature is said to be first dimension - but like the Tarot - 0 Fool card, it's both the beginning and the end - so I feel it is 8D/1D - fully evolved/fully new octave
love to you
I remind myself I volunteered to come here - and try to have a chuckle at how hard I'm going to kick mySelf when I get back after this 'assignment' ! 0_0
I also suggest you try reaching out with your heart/mind for help from your non human family/non corporeal entities/Angels/energetic presences.... and actively seek their psychic support - surround yourself in total positive light before and during doing this -
if you would like some Reiki (Universal Life Force/Light) sent to you let me know
you feel alone - but you are NOT alone
sharing here is a brave step -
ask
reach out to the Ether - I think they're waiting to come to you and help - but require being asked/your permission first.
it's very difficult and yet sanity producing to read your 'state' - because I can SO relate - and the pain of being a 'creature' is so weird isn't it...!
having a flesh body affixed in time and space - being the only one inside this body... being an alien from a trillion somethings away
the isolation - the sometimes terrifying /glitch/ of 'existing' like THIS - and - in this (seemingly arbitrary "here and now")
I live with the itch to not continue being 'here'
(I'm very cross with my pre incarnate Self/SMC/whatever that has put mySelf into this awful world/time with a veil so strong and loneliness, betrayal, deprivation, and psychic and physical agony that makes so little sense (with the supposed best answer for all of it - that it's "creator experiencing itself" and "learning" etc....) (like - blerrrr.... eff off!)
I live daily as a near total orphan - family estranged (and abusive), forever single, friends far away in other parts of a big country....
the only thing keeping me alive is sobriety, ssri's, good food, my 2 sweet funny guinea pigs - and watching whales and dolphins out my windows
there better be a massive welcome home when I die... and the hardest part? loving this world (in parts) also... so don't want to leave the parts that I do care about
if it helps at all thankyou for your words - you're more understood than you might think...
if you'd like Usui Reiki sent to you let me know... it would be like a small gentle 'mind meld' (between you and the ALL THAT IS) and may provide some soothing for you...
nature has a quiet and massive healing - can you BE in nature somewhere? nature is also 'non human' and may speak to you and comfort you on a very deep level way beyond words, ideas, and in a different resonance to the human psychology overlay that can jar with alien souls...
even sitting next to a plant or fire/candle... Nature is said to be first dimension - but like the Tarot - 0 Fool card, it's both the beginning and the end - so I feel it is 8D/1D - fully evolved/fully new octave
love to you
I remind myself I volunteered to come here - and try to have a chuckle at how hard I'm going to kick mySelf when I get back after this 'assignment' ! 0_0
I also suggest you try reaching out with your heart/mind for help from your non human family/non corporeal entities/Angels/energetic presences.... and actively seek their psychic support - surround yourself in total positive light before and during doing this -
if you would like some Reiki (Universal Life Force/Light) sent to you let me know
you feel alone - but you are NOT alone
sharing here is a brave step -
ask
reach out to the Ether - I think they're waiting to come to you and help - but require being asked/your permission first.
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