When will "I" cease to be?

[rva_jeremy]

At what stage of evolution will I cease to think or feel in terms of "I"?

That's something I've pondered quite a bit myself. The sense I've gotten from several sources, not just Confederation, is that we tend to define our sense of self by our limited perspective. Much of our inner discourse that constructs our "ego selves" constitutes a running attempt to constrain our viewpoint in order to make an ego self possible, relevant, and necessary. We have this sense that merging into a greater identity will be a loss of who we are, but over and over again I see this refuted, though it's something I have a very foggy and uncertain grasp of. But part of the gist seems to be that we erroneously identify ourselves with this restricting, limiting inner narrative, and that that narrative is totally unnecessary to be "ourselves"--it's just necessary to be ourselves in this third density, yellow ray, socially vehicular manner. Many sources say repeatedly that there will be no loss of ourself in social memory; in fact, we'll be much more our individual selves within the collective. This seems completely and totally contradictory, however, and leads me to believe that we have no idea who we are in third density, and most of our agency in this density is indeed a kind of dream--the same way that you can take actions in a dream without it really feeling like something you'd really do. It's you, but it's not you.

My takeaway from this is just trying to ponder and accept the premise that identity is a very fluid and unfixed concept, which totally runs up against all of our lived experience in "the real world". Except perhaps on the internet, where it is possible to play with one's identity presentation to others, and you see a lot of social discomfort there (to the point where people have been talking about regulating online identities for over a decade, because so much of our society is built upon the concept of a fixed identity in a one-to-one relationship with a "person").