Balancing Thinking as you Progress

[AnthroHeart]

Sometimes advances must be taken. Otherwise you'll spend 90 years trying to ground yourself with little progression. DMT and ayahuasca have helped me in the past begin to face my true self, though their time in my life is over. I experienced hyperspace, and being aboard a UFO hovering over a planet.

It's dangerous, though I already had like 5 years of Reiki and energy work experience.

Now I'm so grounded because of psych meds that I must really meditate hard and focus in order to raise my kundalini even a little bit.
I am unable to progress towards enlightenment. So I do the next most important thing to me, which is learning about anthros.

Though I figure if I can keep my thoughts balanced, then I can move up progressively. I don't know if I'll experience oneness or unity in this life. Although there really is no death.

Honestly, Gemini. It seems you have it rough. I don't understand why it is a concern to raise your kundalini at all, based on what I know about your circumstances. There's no judgement, but it seems your path to adepthood is that of the moon

Thanks. Perhaps it was a misunderstanding, since I thought you had to raise kundalini to your crown in order to reach Nirvana. Nothing would make me happier than knowing I didn't have to do all that in order to fight my way to the top of my own personal mountain.

My only desire is to know that anthros are real and to interact with them on the inner planes.

I needed to hear about my path being the moon. I don't know much about how that would be.

I don't see anyone else searching for anthros like I am doing. I don't see any books about anthros in a non-fiction setting. I don't know if there is a single non-fiction anthro book.

I guess I was taking my techniques from what worked for others.

I'm learning to be ok even when negativity is all around me. I also have had to face some intense negativity in my dreams. Although in many dreams I am also a teacher. Or I am learning from a teacher.