Balancing Thinking as you Progress

[Cobrien]

I fear being trapped where I am. I fear that and realms of infinite pain.

Now that is a powerful recognition. It can cripple you or make you great. Knowing where you are has no meaning and you create your place in this battleground of polarity, is powerful. Pursuing a worthy ideal for myself has become healing. Seems using DMT was highly traumatic for you. Drugs use for myself was the same.

Thinking what you want for yourself while knowing you cannot obtain it makes you feel trapped. Start small. What do you want for yourself? Separate fantasy and fact. For example, "I want to wake up a certain time everyday". What do you like to do that's productive? Building confidence to face the world is no joke.

Fear is a rejection/denial often to protect a sense of self. Ultimately, you will fear until you face it. Then you realize the monster is small and helpless.