05-23-2017, 02:42 PM
Late here must zzzzzzz
but
I'm exhausted from only reading the first quarter of your recent reply post... (let alone the waaaay 'too much personal info' sharing about porn and weed!) (*eeeeeouwww*)
I'd like to say (with a kind energy) - that maybe you might benefit from looking at just how enormously much 'talk' you've engaged in (like I was pointing out)... when what you and us all, have identified is that it's NOW time to put all the energy you use for that constant talk and analysis into ACTION !! 0_0
weed is a serious sedative.... sex addiction is an energy thief too - and at the rate you're "using" no wonder you have no energy!
I feel like I'm soon going to need to back away - I'm getting irked by having to repeat advice that' only met with talk and no 'walk'...
it'd be great if you show this to be wrong... but of course you need to go at the pace right for you - just be aware that the longer you hold to a habit the stronger it forms... if you were in a great life the issue of your addictions would still need confronting (imo) but at least you'd be independent financially and logistically.
When I keep deferring things I need to do, I remind myself of past times that procrastination has cost me and put me into a world of oppression and pain... it gets me off the couch fast - but I had to learn the most hard - by nearly dying - that's why I posted the 'Life in 5 chapters' by Portia...
what needs fixing - that we ignore/postpone - will come to bite us far harder the longer we leave it. Life starts the teaching with a whisper of what's wrong - and each time increases the volume to get through to us - don't let the message become a scream. You're still young - you have time to avoid disaster. Change sooner because the longer you leave it the more difficult it becomes.
That you smoke weed will make taking action even more difficult - I didn't have the actual energy to change my life till I stopped drowning in drinking....
and that first 12 months sober I was still living in a situation of severe psychological threat/fear/stress already with PTSD from earlier violence in my life (!)
there's a big difference between a relaxing occasional glass of wine/shared joint with a friend or partner on a weekend in your own place after a good meal and a happy productive week, all bills paid, no-one arguing or bossing you around; than the addiction you've got and the environment you're trying to block out with a weed/sex addiction. I see you analyse the destructiveness of sex addiction ... and you raise critical points... there's extreme toxicity in this area and you're psychically, psychologically embroiled with dark phenomena and blunting your sexuality, feelings around pleasure, emotions around loving, etc
but as I said I couldn't finish your reply - I hope you stop posting here and (imo) revelling in the analysis of all this - write a list of practical steps, put down your joint (and your dick 0_0)
and TAKE ACTION TO LIBERATE YOURSELF
I look forward to you setting up a blog or similar on B4 with daily 'check ins of positive actions you're taking and we can give support to changes you're making... and help brainstorm more practical help...
I will read the rest of your reply tomorrow... but seriously - until you change things - most of your posting (analysing your life over and over) is redundant
but
I'm exhausted from only reading the first quarter of your recent reply post... (let alone the waaaay 'too much personal info' sharing about porn and weed!) (*eeeeeouwww*)
I'd like to say (with a kind energy) - that maybe you might benefit from looking at just how enormously much 'talk' you've engaged in (like I was pointing out)... when what you and us all, have identified is that it's NOW time to put all the energy you use for that constant talk and analysis into ACTION !! 0_0
weed is a serious sedative.... sex addiction is an energy thief too - and at the rate you're "using" no wonder you have no energy!
I feel like I'm soon going to need to back away - I'm getting irked by having to repeat advice that' only met with talk and no 'walk'...
it'd be great if you show this to be wrong... but of course you need to go at the pace right for you - just be aware that the longer you hold to a habit the stronger it forms... if you were in a great life the issue of your addictions would still need confronting (imo) but at least you'd be independent financially and logistically.
When I keep deferring things I need to do, I remind myself of past times that procrastination has cost me and put me into a world of oppression and pain... it gets me off the couch fast - but I had to learn the most hard - by nearly dying - that's why I posted the 'Life in 5 chapters' by Portia...
what needs fixing - that we ignore/postpone - will come to bite us far harder the longer we leave it. Life starts the teaching with a whisper of what's wrong - and each time increases the volume to get through to us - don't let the message become a scream. You're still young - you have time to avoid disaster. Change sooner because the longer you leave it the more difficult it becomes.
That you smoke weed will make taking action even more difficult - I didn't have the actual energy to change my life till I stopped drowning in drinking....
and that first 12 months sober I was still living in a situation of severe psychological threat/fear/stress already with PTSD from earlier violence in my life (!)
there's a big difference between a relaxing occasional glass of wine/shared joint with a friend or partner on a weekend in your own place after a good meal and a happy productive week, all bills paid, no-one arguing or bossing you around; than the addiction you've got and the environment you're trying to block out with a weed/sex addiction. I see you analyse the destructiveness of sex addiction ... and you raise critical points... there's extreme toxicity in this area and you're psychically, psychologically embroiled with dark phenomena and blunting your sexuality, feelings around pleasure, emotions around loving, etc
but as I said I couldn't finish your reply - I hope you stop posting here and (imo) revelling in the analysis of all this - write a list of practical steps, put down your joint (and your dick 0_0)
and TAKE ACTION TO LIBERATE YOURSELF
I look forward to you setting up a blog or similar on B4 with daily 'check ins of positive actions you're taking and we can give support to changes you're making... and help brainstorm more practical help...
I will read the rest of your reply tomorrow... but seriously - until you change things - most of your posting (analysing your life over and over) is redundant