What energies are you experiencing?

[sjel]

I feel like a lightning rod in a field.

That's how I feel too.

The periods of forgetting in between love are getting much shorter and less drastic it seems. It feels as if it's slowly becoming impossible to NOT notice the increasing love energy.

If I get excited about it, grasp on to it, it recedes until I chill out. And then immediately comes flooding back as long as I remain calm and centered. Like I'm a valve that only needs to open, the love does the rest.

I think that what the fear of losing does is maintain steady awareness. If you were not inclined to be afraid that it would go away, you wouldn't keep trying to increase its intensity and go deeper. I guess that's what the veil's job is!