05-21-2017, 10:58 AM
Its precisely with that help I'm planning on making it out in one piece.
...Doesn't the holder of the... eh... That makes me feel really stupid.
I know that car has me set. Its probably why she's got her grimey fingers all over it...
You're not wrong. Responsibility and I rarely see eye to eye. Many times I don't feel like I'm required to be responsible because any time I am, I get shut down and negated.
I'd have a garden by now but nope, its a trash pile because she thinks a pile of garbage is able to compost.
Would have had 5k saved up instead of 2k but mother kept forcing me to give her money.
Pool would be perfectly fine if she didn't force me to put chemicals in it without running the filters.
House would be well taken care of had she not dictated what is and isn't okay to do. I can't even leave a plate out for ONE NIGHT without her yelling at me.
I try and she shuts it down. It gets to a point where I can't even tell what is trying anymore. It feels like I'm handicapped with responsibility because I was never allowed to or even shown how to be responsible.
Not sure if that shows but I imagine it does vividly.
I never even was given an allowance, I had to use lunch money as my allowance. Had to skip eating just to do things with friend's after school. When I asked for an allowance and cited ALL my friends get one. I was told my allowance is living in her house.
Guess who quickly never did another chore except for when he felt like it.
I'd love to be responsible, I was doing really well at it back in 2014 while Living The Law of One, but it all came so uninterruptingly naturally. so I know I'm capable! I just don't know how... and as you see, my gullibility gets me taken advantage of through lies.
I admire your resilience Jade. I just don't want to perpetuate those environments. People deserve to be treated with respect when they're working, not like they're disposable garbage. I'd rather be my own boss if that's what it takes to get away from those environments.
I would lovingly pay off my school loans owed to the community college I went to. I just don't believe The Art Institute deserves another penny from me.
And if I'm being totally honest, I think no one should have to pay a country back debt owed to it when the country itself is trillions of dollars in debt.
The Government Senators can stop doing their job and still get paid. Why can't everyone else?
The country can.go trillions in debt and no ones collecting its assets. Why isn't that true for people?
Debt is a TOTAL SCAM. I don't think anyone should pay it. I think physical money should replace the virtual system so the government can't just access your account and steal your money, so that people can manage money without going through so many hoops.
I just can't agree with this society. I won't be very happy inside of it. I want to find a way to live totally self sufficiently... That's where my priorities are directed. I'd rather live in a Van or minihome or a home built into a hill or tree than pay a mortgage. I'd love to roll along the countryside in a Van living spiritually doing my freelance work for money, live as I go, earn as I go.
One day...I'm going to keep working towards it. Towards something that isn't requiring me to be a machine for 40+ hours just to go back to a place I'm not even happy in anyways to repeat until I'm dead.
I want to live life and come to understand the Earth, not just live on it. But people think that's unrealistic but I KNOW that there IS A WAY. I will find it through all the chafe and abuse and set backs.
I've already have so much support. I just need to take action personally...Take responsibility.
You weren't harsh in the least Jade. No worries
...Doesn't the holder of the... eh... That makes me feel really stupid.
I know that car has me set. Its probably why she's got her grimey fingers all over it...
You're not wrong. Responsibility and I rarely see eye to eye. Many times I don't feel like I'm required to be responsible because any time I am, I get shut down and negated.
I'd have a garden by now but nope, its a trash pile because she thinks a pile of garbage is able to compost.
Would have had 5k saved up instead of 2k but mother kept forcing me to give her money.
Pool would be perfectly fine if she didn't force me to put chemicals in it without running the filters.
House would be well taken care of had she not dictated what is and isn't okay to do. I can't even leave a plate out for ONE NIGHT without her yelling at me.
I try and she shuts it down. It gets to a point where I can't even tell what is trying anymore. It feels like I'm handicapped with responsibility because I was never allowed to or even shown how to be responsible.
Not sure if that shows but I imagine it does vividly.
I never even was given an allowance, I had to use lunch money as my allowance. Had to skip eating just to do things with friend's after school. When I asked for an allowance and cited ALL my friends get one. I was told my allowance is living in her house.
Guess who quickly never did another chore except for when he felt like it.
I'd love to be responsible, I was doing really well at it back in 2014 while Living The Law of One, but it all came so uninterruptingly naturally. so I know I'm capable! I just don't know how... and as you see, my gullibility gets me taken advantage of through lies.
I admire your resilience Jade. I just don't want to perpetuate those environments. People deserve to be treated with respect when they're working, not like they're disposable garbage. I'd rather be my own boss if that's what it takes to get away from those environments.
I would lovingly pay off my school loans owed to the community college I went to. I just don't believe The Art Institute deserves another penny from me.
And if I'm being totally honest, I think no one should have to pay a country back debt owed to it when the country itself is trillions of dollars in debt.
The Government Senators can stop doing their job and still get paid. Why can't everyone else?
The country can.go trillions in debt and no ones collecting its assets. Why isn't that true for people?
Debt is a TOTAL SCAM. I don't think anyone should pay it. I think physical money should replace the virtual system so the government can't just access your account and steal your money, so that people can manage money without going through so many hoops.
I just can't agree with this society. I won't be very happy inside of it. I want to find a way to live totally self sufficiently... That's where my priorities are directed. I'd rather live in a Van or minihome or a home built into a hill or tree than pay a mortgage. I'd love to roll along the countryside in a Van living spiritually doing my freelance work for money, live as I go, earn as I go.
One day...I'm going to keep working towards it. Towards something that isn't requiring me to be a machine for 40+ hours just to go back to a place I'm not even happy in anyways to repeat until I'm dead.
I want to live life and come to understand the Earth, not just live on it. But people think that's unrealistic but I KNOW that there IS A WAY. I will find it through all the chafe and abuse and set backs.
I've already have so much support. I just need to take action personally...Take responsibility.
You weren't harsh in the least Jade. No worries