Balancing Grounding with Seeking

[Aaron]

Ahh, I'd never watched your videos before! It's great to actually see and hear you! A couple of thoughts on your video: The force of creation, or the great original thought, is at all times flowing from the center. I imagine that when you use your body to shape energy like that, you're molding something beautiful out of a stream that's already there, already flowing. What you do reminds me of what the logoi do on a larger scale. They take the light from the logos "above" them and further refine it, even creating "isolated" matrices like you perform. I know from what you've posted here that you've been on an incredible journey into the depths of mind, viewing the creation of this region of the universe as it is contained inside you. So I know that because of this experience, you're able to give this creative process a physical analog like you do in the video, shaping metaphysical light. What you're doing here seems to be like 5th density work. Logic, communication, symbols, language, working in isolation, shaping light. But 5th density work is dangerous if not balanced with 4th density love. I think if you don't remember to have compassion upon yourself as you practice this, you may fall into a negative rut. I'm sorry if it's inappropriate to guess where you are on your spiritual path or what you should be doing. I only say this because I have compassion for you as a fellow student of the Ra material and a human being. And that is what I would do if I found myself moving into that sort of energy work. Always balance myself with compassion.

My question to you is, how does this empower your current third density seeking experience? How do you find it useful in your everyday dealings with catalyst? Also, what do you suppose the channeling of the strange language is? Does it resonate with the particular energy of your creation at that time? Does it enforce it or add meaning? Or does it simply help you get into a mindset more conducive to shaping light?

Also, a comment on technique from a person who's never even scratched the surface of that sort of energy work (lol to point out the irony): I see that you give simple, linear commands to program the isolated matrices that you conceive, such as "autobalance" or "add humility". Just like programming a three dimensional computer. I wonder though, if what you're doing is taking an immensely powerful and streamlined subconscious process, highlighting a small portion of it, and bringing that portion up to speak it out loud and have it affect your creation. Does that make sense? I wonder if the commands are necessary, is what I'm saying. Can't it be done by channeling the subconscious creative process which is already whole, rather than chopping it up and making portions of it linear? For example, when I visualize something, it's just there. It comes from the subconscious, which is able to create vast and intricate fields without any input from the conscious mind. To visualize, I don't have to say "Lighten the picture. Add trees. Rotate view." etc.

Hi Everyone,

I haven't been so active as of late on the forum. I have been doing a lot of grounding, building protection around me, and seeking. I have minimized my amount of time online, to help with my recovery from a challenging couple of weeks.

Curious, what do you think of as grounding? Personally, how do you ground yourself?

I am still sending my good intention to everyone on the forum. I am on some medication to help stabilize my mind, and that's a good thing. Eventually I foresee that I won't need the meds, but for now, they provide a buffer of time so my mind doesn't shift too far off track.

I thank you for your good intentions! I've always been a guy who doesn't like "regular" or "normal" healing practices such as pain meds, anti-depressants, or what have you. I think they introduce an unnecessary and often harmful chemical agent into a system that, with the right intention, should always be able to heal itself with direction from the "person behind the wheel". So, from my point of view, I hope that you come to a point soon where you can release the burden of having to have unnaturally introduced chemicals swarming around your brain. But, on the other hand, I'm happy to see that you report that they're helping you.

So I am experiencing time distortions. If I play a song for instance, by about 15 seconds to 3 minutes, I no longer remember even starting the song. So my perception of the song is that it's been playing forever.

Before I was always focused on what the future might bring, or worries of the past. Now, I am pretty much in a timeless state. Though I do get bored because my attention span fades at around the 15 second mark. So if I'm sitting outdoors, I don't know if I had been sitting for 10 mins or an hour. This introduces some boredom, so I have to go do something else every so often.

That sounds to me like a memory problem, rather than distorted time experience.

For me, the veil is very thin. I have the thoughts that at a higher level, everything is ok, as it should be, same as what Ra taught. It's affected my sexuality as well, not having any feelings or urges in that regard for the last month. But I like it like this, at least till I eventually find a relationship.

I believe the veil is the same for everyone. I think it's a part of the planet's magnetic field that interacts with our brains. It's my opinion that since everyone's built a little differently, the veil could be lighter for some, but not by a significant amount. I do think that the veil is temporarily permeable with a combination of intent and adepthood. (Those times where the veil is pierced being intelligently and precisely woven into the life experience of the individual by the higher self.

And I'm seeing a weekly counselor, and also a psychiatrist, so we're changing up my meds to find a better combination. The ones I'm on now cause dry mouth and foggy-headedness. I can't remember things for long. But what better way to really be in the now as to not remember the recent past, and not worry about the future.

I wonder if what you describe here sexuality, as well as the "ADHD" symptoms above, are side effects of the meds, as you may suspect. I have my own suspicions that the meds they would put a person in your situation on would be those that numb the finer senses, inhibiting higher brain functions to bring you down to a so-called comfortable level. However, to you, I don't think said level would be at all comfortable, due to your natural tendencies to be in touch with the finer senses and higher thought processes, like most of us who are drawn to the Ra material.

I do agree with what you say about it being easier to be in the now! That would be so... haha! However, I would point out that an aspect of being a conscious co-creator is not so much not worrying about the future, but rather "grasping the needle(of the compass) and pointing it in the right direction" as Ra says.

It has been my good urge to be able to teach others. One must be careful what they teach. It's going to take me time to learn how to talk in riddles so that the deeper teachings can be said. Adding to the mystery of creation is something I believe increases spiritual mass and is a good thing. It empowers the seekers, while not causing unnecessary distortions with everyone else.

The thing that comes to my mind here is the Law of Confusion. I believe that's why Jesus and the Buddha spoke in parables. It takes concepts that an initiated person could work with directly, and translates them, in a beautiful and natural way, into concepts that can be easily grasped by a third density mind. A linear story, beginning, middle, end.