Fucking universe creation and the limitations therein, how does that work?

[Diana]

I can be extremely lazy and I am very unmotivated, because I spend 99% of my free time reading, searching for answers, etc.. Is this going to be a penalty as far as my 3d evolution? I never used to dread leaving the house, but after learning so much about how the real world really is (the illusion) and how most people are, I prefer to not be around many. My anxiety is sky high.

Can relate...

I can relate as well. I will point out that this is, in part, inertia. I know this from experience. I've worked at home most of my adult life so being around people and solitude have been very clearly delineated for me.

I find that when I have too much solitude, judgments toward humanity enter my thoughts more. If I go out among people more, I get "hungover" with so much human static and melodrama (my own fault for not having better ways to process it). So for me, it's about balance, which leads to what I call a healthy detachment, so I can stay on track with what I am here, and want, to do.