Fucking universe creation and the limitations therein, how does that work?

[Mahakali]

I can be extremely lazy and I am very unmotivated, because I spend 99% of my free time reading, searching for answers, etc.. Is this going to be a penalty as far as my 3d evolution? I never used to dread leaving the house, but after learning so much about how the real world really is (the illusion) and how most people are, I prefer to not be around many. My anxiety is sky high.

Can relate.

I'm lazy, too, but I also don't know exactly what I should be doing other than being lazy. I'd be a lo more motivated if I had a goal of value and a way to achieve it. Reading is always a good thing, but there's so much to read, and so little of value.

I just don't like people. I don't see how being around them is useful. It's not even them as much as it is me. I also don't use drugs much anymore, don't use social media much anymore, very rarely watch TV, etc. Just no use for such things.

I wish I knew what to actually do. Learning is necessary, but so is doing, and I don't know where to go from there.