The service of giving attention to another self

[BlatzAdict]

I wonder if others struggle with something that has been a lifelong condition for me: frustration, anger, and exhaustion with those who seem to monopolize my attention.  Lately I've come to see this as a perennial root (or low-level) cause of conflicts in my life.  When people demand my attention at times I don't care to give it, it creates a great conflict within me, often leading to behaviors that are not my highest and best. 

On the one hand, it seems trifling to deny a human contact, respect, and acknowledgement--it's such a small price to pay, and we all need it.  And we all have times where we need it more and in greater quantities than at other times. In fact, I think attention is a kind of gift we give one another to mutually create and reinforce self consciousness within society.  There is a sense in which we positively owe another our attention for the pure reason that they owe it to us, and that this is a basis of selfhood within the yellow ray experience.  All of this to say that I think giving attention to another goes beyond mere "service" in the same way that refraining from punching people is not simply a service I perform.

On the other hand, when an inch is given and a mile is taken, I think I feel a sense of violation out of proportion to the actual situation.  It creates deep anxiety to feel I am obligated to continue interacting with somebody with whom I feel no mutual energy exchange or with whom I simply have not chosen to serve open-heartedly.  Whether or not it's nice or loving of me to reject the performance of a service at any given moment, I'm less interested in the "should" here and more interested in the nature of the blockage or tension.

I don't expect anybody to unblock me via the internet, heh, but I was wondering if others have had success in cracking this nut.  Thank you!

perhaps learning to communicate those feelings more freely with the other person when they are starting to impinge on your patience, clear upfront honest communication is always best. It is going to build up inside of you if you don't release it, and sometimes bringing it to the person directly that you have the issue with, will create a very big chance for healing, not just with them but with yourself.

After all they are projecting a side of yourself that you have not learned to love yet.

You may be doing a disservice to yourself lacking compassion for your self, trying to balance it out during the interaction on the other self?

whats done generally remains done, if you've been blocked the best thing to do is to move on and use the situation as a springboard lesson plan. i have been using the past couple of months to use similar situations to understand what constitutes healthy boundaries, and that is in part making sure to get on the same page, and learning to respect your own personal needs more, will lead you to communicating them and identifying those same traits in others.

if we were to seek to have someone who had blocked us to unblock us and mend a relationship, technically that would abridge their free will of the choice that other person made. pick up the pieces and find better friends by becoming a better friend to yourself. Good luck and i love you brother.