Spiritual thoughts and ideas you have nowhere to write down

[Infinite Unity]

I am struggling with leaving my current situation because of love for myself and for my bf.
I have been with him 7 yrs. We love each other but we are not happy anymore n i have lost myself.  I don't see our relationship changing n I've given it 7 yrs. nothing changes yet I stay n grow more unhappy because of my fear of being alone, and my limited income.
I feel stunted in my spiritual growth because of my current situation n unhappiness.  I need to be where I can grow n shine n love. With like minded people.
But where is that? I know no like minded person.
Anyone get any of my rambling? Plz let me know.

Calm yourself. See what is there to see. There is skill in flinging open the curtains of the soul, and letting light in. And rising up hope. It is the very stuff we ponder here. Magic : is the ability to cause change in conscience at will. If you are all things....Then what cant you change? Change comes through realization, as the self is the base of all knowledge. Now the pool of life is a reflection of ones being, and think about that as you move through your day. Be aware of your thoughts, and how they trickle down the precipous into negativity. The more divided you feel, the more you will fuel the division he feels, and vice versa. The universe is reciprocal, and the mind the seed layer. The soul the captain. When you allow your focus to rest or react within the range of hate/separation. You will lay seeds of hate, and one day awaken to fields/experiences of hate. Which are just lessons of your identity and true nature.

Pay attention to your thoughts, notice what you think it is that he is doing, that bothers you so. And follow the string back to where it originates. The One and Only Self. The Mystery Clad Macrocosmic Being. Accept who you are.

Also I agree with Diana on finding better ways to support ones self. However a lot of times instead of adding workload, just subtract what is not needed.