11-11-2010, 01:13 PM
Thanks for your care Shemaya, but I am honest... I am honest and happy. The first and foremost reason for unhappy feelings is the inner dialog. That's why Meerie feels such calm when she looks at the true now. All the drama is really superficial. And it really really is.
This is a good summary: http://imgur.com/7d4t6
If I admitted to being unhappy. I would become unhappy because my inner dialog would identify with being unhappy. Happiness isn't a state, it's a choice. We're unhappy for as long as we tell ourselves that.
I used to be unhappy. I've got the self mutilation scars on my arm. At one point when I felt particularly lonely and unhappy I asked myself why... And there was an answer... "Why? That's what you want isn't it?"
If you feel unhappy and want to stop doing it... Stop reinforcing your unhappy thoughts. It's choice choice choice... My grandfather on his deathbed was crying tears of happiness. So I have no excuses. My ex left me, so what? The ones before her were always worse than their follow ups. So the one after my ex will be awesome, partly because I am starting to figure out how to be awesome myself...
This may not come across as the bouncy variant of happiness. I don't feel the need to be that, though I get that too, I don't have an in built Prozac gland. I haven't cried a tear of sadness in years. I do cry of gratitude and happiness about once every day or two days. Really, I am that demented. I'm really emotional for a guy. But the negative self talk gets the middle finger it has nothing to offer me. To me it's not about being strong, it's about not being stupid.
Give me any thought, and I'll transmute it into a better one...
This is a good summary: http://imgur.com/7d4t6
If I admitted to being unhappy. I would become unhappy because my inner dialog would identify with being unhappy. Happiness isn't a state, it's a choice. We're unhappy for as long as we tell ourselves that.
I used to be unhappy. I've got the self mutilation scars on my arm. At one point when I felt particularly lonely and unhappy I asked myself why... And there was an answer... "Why? That's what you want isn't it?"
If you feel unhappy and want to stop doing it... Stop reinforcing your unhappy thoughts. It's choice choice choice... My grandfather on his deathbed was crying tears of happiness. So I have no excuses. My ex left me, so what? The ones before her were always worse than their follow ups. So the one after my ex will be awesome, partly because I am starting to figure out how to be awesome myself...
This may not come across as the bouncy variant of happiness. I don't feel the need to be that, though I get that too, I don't have an in built Prozac gland. I haven't cried a tear of sadness in years. I do cry of gratitude and happiness about once every day or two days. Really, I am that demented. I'm really emotional for a guy. But the negative self talk gets the middle finger it has nothing to offer me. To me it's not about being strong, it's about not being stupid.
Give me any thought, and I'll transmute it into a better one...