Spiritual thoughts and ideas you have nowhere to write down

[Diana]

I am struggling with leaving my current situation because of love for myself and for my bf.
I have been with him 7 yrs. We love each other but we are not happy anymore n i have lost myself.  I don't see our relationship changing n I've given it 7 yrs. nothing changes yet I stay n grow more unhappy because of my fear of being alone, and my limited income.
I feel stunted in my spiritual growth because of my current situation n unhappiness.  I need to be where I can grow n shine n love. With like minded people.
But where is that? I know no like minded person.
Anyone get any of my rambling? Plz let me know.

I suggest you concentrate on growing, shining, and loving. To be with like-minded people is to have expectations. It's setting up conditions—which will likely be frustrated. Acceptance is the key, as then one let's go—relaxes the grip on—an idea that something outside of self is the answer.

If I were you, I would focus on better ways to support yourself. Then you will have more choices available and you won't feel as stuck.

Perhaps, as you say you love each other, you can part friends and maybe he would help you with support until you can make it on your own? In any case, honesty from the heart with your partner would be a great starting point to create movement and change in a positive direction.