11-10-2010, 06:17 PM
Right now I tend to be on a roller coaster of the highest elation and the deepest depression. With the shift growing ever more obvious, my emotions are becoming much more potent. Every little thing has such meaning now that it doesn't take much at all to make me explode with joy or go all to tears. If anything, I am thankful for finally being able to recognize catalyst as it comes my way and actively use it, even if it produces feelings of sorrow and pain. I can still have the underlying joy that I am learning and growing. I feel like part of the veil has already been lifted, though not much has changed in the physical.
One of the few things that often brings me down is homesickness. As I feel more and more love coming through it reminds me more and more of those places that are a distant memory in my mind, and the faces I long to see again. It is such an intense, burning longing. I really don't want to quit the race this close to the finish line, though. I know they are all with me in spirit, and I still have work to do here, though part of me wishes with all my heart that they would come and beam me up right this second.
One of the few things that often brings me down is homesickness. As I feel more and more love coming through it reminds me more and more of those places that are a distant memory in my mind, and the faces I long to see again. It is such an intense, burning longing. I really don't want to quit the race this close to the finish line, though. I know they are all with me in spirit, and I still have work to do here, though part of me wishes with all my heart that they would come and beam me up right this second.