Spiritual thoughts and ideas you have nowhere to write down

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I am struggling with leaving my current situation because of love for myself and for my bf.
I have been with him 7 yrs. We love each other but we are not happy anymore n i have lost myself.  I don't see our relationship changing n I've given it 7 yrs. nothing changes yet I stay n grow more unhappy because of my fear of being alone, and my limited income.
I feel stunted in my spiritual growth because of my current situation n unhappiness.  I need to be where I can grow n shine n love. With like minded people.
But where is that? I know no like minded person.
Anyone get any of my rambling? Plz let me know.

Ah, i get it.  I experienced this life lesson only shorter with a pregnant girlfriend.

Is he aware of how you feel and does he care if he does?

Spiritual growth is especially occurring during times where it feels stuck.  There is a saying, when life is falling apart its actually falling together.  You are experiencing a peculiar catalyst and I would argue that the best thing to do is to attempt rekindling his love in you.  Remind him of when everything was fresh and new between you two.  Author a new loving relationship or 'renew' it, try and if nothing goes anywhere then you know its not you completely.

Relationships are interesting life lessons/plans and catalyst.  People change in relationships, and outside of them, try to keep that change within your desire.

Is your relationship failing, or is it a trial to see if you're still right for each other?

You author how you view it.  See it as a trial rather than something failing.

And if all else fails, have a fall back plan...
Don't forget to look out for yourself!