03-16-2017, 08:34 PM
I would say in my case, my honesty of heart manifest by repressing the negative energies I receive. I am surrounded by dishonest and angry people (not all of them, I'm obviously also surrounded by some very nice people). If I was to let that pass through me without just a little bit of repression, and I mean by that if I was to exactly express what I receive from some other selves even in their own repressed emotions, I would commit murder, rape, and violent crimes, which obviously I don't desire neither for myself or any other selves. I desire that people see my presence and positive intention as the expression itself where my words cannot reach. I have no other solution for this paradox yet. In there lies my greatest orange ray blocage, in that my most powerful positive intention is to prevent the negative energies I receive from spreading, and I'm not always successful. It is surely at the cost of my own wellbeingness. That is why I strive for peace so much. I cannot find it so long as I am surrounded by individuals who contains raging war themselves. My thankfullness to peaceful individuals is infinite.