Pins and needles and cramping from meditation - Crazy intense

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Weird, I experienced the deep emotions very vividly with weed.  The understanding felt more like I was just open minded enough to figure some things out, with Ra's helpful teachings anyway.

The most surprising ability I discovered from weed though...Was how when I'd have a memory lapse or a moment where I'm like, "blahblahblah... ... ...What was I talking about?" I could 'feel' for the memory and remember what I was thinking or talking about.

From there I figured out how to basically manually prune or reinforce synaptic chains.  Thankfully ironically I no longer remember how to 'feel' to make this happen anymore which is probably for the best...  Sure I could literally program myself one chain of neurons at a time but that was back when I loved unconditionally constantly, or basically back in 2014...  As I am now, I don't think I'd be the most responsible with that 'ability'.

Sadly I admit I have had some incredible insights and realizations disappear because of weeds effect on the short term memory.

I recommend a little notebook or journal for weed users to record anything insightful or meaningful to be remembered later.