What are the rays?

[AnthroHeart]

Well at first like 5 or 6 years ago, I had used DMT quite a bit, and that seemed to put a hole in my aura.
I had a psych meltdown then and thought the Universe was conspiring against me.

Because of the knowledge I had of the Law of One, I had experiences that mirrored that.
Like I learned to use phrases such as "Create a Law of Octave" and put some energy patterns in there that would not spread out.
Because when you change something through energy patterns, it can affect other things.

Then I saw the movie The Sprit of the Forest. It's a kids film, not really all that, but it did cause me to awaken.
I thought it was an introduction to how to use 4D techniques.

My parents were watching it with me, and I asked something like "Are they seeing the same thing I am?"
And I heard a response in my head saying, "No Tom, they're not really there."

So my parents weren't really there. I guess that makes some kind of sense.
But I thought that 4D gave me a free for all, so I spiraled downward trying to create a hell for Satan.

I did so many Law of Octaves, and Box Changes and stuff that it became a big mess of energy patterns that just kept expanding, taking my mind with it.
I asked Ra then to help me undo the changes I had made.

From that experience I learned not to change anything when you first get to 4D. It's good to get your bearings first.
Else you might create a sun that's so close to the planet that you burn everything on it.

I'm not using verbal commands this time. I'm letting Ra send me their energy and it automatically goes out to where it's needed the most.

I think being behind the veil, not being able to see how our work affects what changes, since we're not directly observing those changes, it won't introduce new changes.

Energy patterns can be dense, and are very fluid and affected by thought. Not so much when they turn solid.

I'm on meds for my psych issues. But they have helped ground me so I can then do the energy work. I feel the energy now, and am protected from the bipolar (manic and depressive episodes) because of the meds.

Now I feel I have a purpose. Trying not to make it too selfish or ego-driven though.

But I think in the past I was put through some tests to see if I would abuse the power and I never did that I'm aware of. So maybe I can handle a bit more responsibility.

That's about it. The process of Love came when I asked Ra to send me Love/Light. And that's been going a few days now, except when I sleep that I know of.

Then I find that song Glorious, from the movie Rock Dog, and it really gave me the warm fuzzies. That's how I picture love.