Determining where I come from

[Minyatur]

I don't know how this came but also feel this solitude bias has been strong in me although I wanted to get married. Now I live a family life and my work also contains a lot of interactions with others. I feel an intense amount of catalyst in all this and the desire for longer periods of solitude is still strong and keeping me from better use of this experience.

I can't say that is the case for you but in my case I think it is a soul-bias born of eons of solitude and seeking without others. It's strange contrast to perceive some can't find to be well in solitude when to me it simply feels whole.

Yet I think we are here to serve and not merely dwell in our own energy however peaceful that might be in contrast to the energies of others, if that was our goal we wouldn't be here. This is somewhat my problem in opening my field to the energies of others more as while I feel weightless to myself, most feel like packs of heaviness requiring to be distilled and transmuted. I think what helps is a strong crystalized inner presence, I didn't program myself much catalyst in this area so I got the freedom of opening myself at my own pace because it only happens out of the strenght of my desire of it.

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House XII is the area of education and of emotion.

House XII in Cancer
Problems will only come from the family

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Seems accurate to me, although I wasn't thrown all that many problems either.