Personal Experience of "Mind Control"

[Kaaron]

Kaaron - writing:

Some people on here are LOO nazi's. "The LOO says...", "if Don, Carla and Jim..." blah blah blah.

is disrespectful and arrogant - and if me pointing that out to you makes me "the most arrogant person here" you may want to look at that absence of logic.
I was merely pointing out how people dismiss free thinking and new ideas based off passages or ideas in the Law of One they have taken a certain way. I feel like alot of people assume alot about contact with Ra and the material in general and then cut down anyone who can't prove them wrong letter for letter, using the Law of One.
I didn't say pointing this out in and of itself makes you arrogant. It's more a pattern of ignorance I've observed. You're quite intelligent and this can enable certain behaviors. The particular one I've noticed, is your ability to find a side point and use it to deflect the true aim of a point, in favor of making you look pure of intention or noble.
I did not wish to be hurtful to you. I wanted to say to you that a forum of people who gave you so much love (to your thread) were being abused by you - and I wanted to wake you up to the unkindness of your words. You were being hurtful and it was your nastiness that I responded to.
But you can't take the same energy back at you?

That's a double standard.
I wasn't hurt by your words. To be honest I found them consistent with your level of awareness. I'd say that you'll find I was being honest and the shoe fit. You getting in your feelings elicited my even more direct response.
You're not the only person on these forums who struggles with suicidal feelings. I do also. On a daily basis.


I see many people have 'liked' your opinion of me being "arrogant".

Many forum members have 'liked' this:

I'm still low n never asked you to do s*** anyway so don't try to emotionally manipulate me.
I think the most arrogant person here is you and you've proved that over and over SMC.

Don't waste your time trying to tell us all how you're so loving and everyone else is the problem when it's OBVIOUS that it's you with the problem cos it can't be EVERYONE ELSE with the problem when you're the common denominator...

You wanna cast insults and get personal...lets go...I got nothing but time.

well - so be it.

I can not trust this community and have never felt I could - and this is the proof.

Women/girls should not have to continually pacify angry male energy.
It is a submissiveness I cannot 'adopt' so as to be accepted in this community.

B4 changes me  and I don't like that. In my daily life I interact with people with mutual respect. Women and men. And the interactions are positive and loving especially when they're challenging.

I've been enduring my own daily journey of avoiding suicide and don't need what could be a spiritual sanctuary, to be such a harsh place of regular instances of disrespect.

I acknowledge that my energy here has been strongly assertive/defensive.... this is because the 'tone' of so much behaviour here has meant I have never felt I can trust to share who I am - or be vulnerable...

The treatment of me when I'm 'assertive' has been so rude and aggressive it has proved my caution is well founded.
We can see how you, Kaaron - have been far more aggressive in saying "LOO nazis" (etc) and in making such a hurtful reply to me - yet you are getting support from forum members - and I'm not....

this is the proof of what I'm saying.

B4 is de-tuned.
The only thing you're proving is that you aren't as in the right as you think. You say you acknowledge that your energy here has been aggresive and then in the next sentence say your treatment is in response to You merely being assertive. This is another unconscious behavior. You call your comment "assertive" while I'd call it divisive, knee jerk and unconsidered...Which makes me feel like you don't even give the time of day to my thought...some might say that's arrogant...perspective is a funny thing.
You get back what you put out.