Personal Experience of "Mind Control"

[Spooner]

I feel your hurt. I think your feelings are understandable. I encourage you to feel firm and secure in your voice and beliefs even when no one supports you. Carla highly admired Jesus and Jesus modeled this steadfastness in his convictions. You can too even with the world against you (or with you at it may turn out; Jesus ended up winning the world's support in the long run).

Kaaron - writing:

Some people on here are LOO nazi's. "The LOO says...", "if Don, Carla and Jim..." blah blah blah.

is disrespectful and arrogant - and if me pointing that out to you makes me "the most arrogant person here" you may want to look at that absence of logic.

I did not wish to be hurtful to you. I wanted to say to you that a forum of people who gave you so much love (to your thread) were being abused by you - and I wanted to wake you up to the unkindness of your words. You were being hurtful and it was your nastiness that I responded to.

But you can't take the same energy back at you?

That's a double standard.

You're not the only person on these forums who struggles with suicidal feelings. I do also. On a daily basis.


I see many people have 'liked' your opinion of me being "arrogant".

Many forum members have 'liked' this:

I'm still low n never asked you to do s*** anyway so don't try to emotionally manipulate me.
I think the most arrogant person here is you and you've proved that over and over SMC.

Don't waste your time trying to tell us all how you're so loving and everyone else is the problem when it's OBVIOUS that it's you with the problem cos it can't be EVERYONE ELSE with the problem when you're the common denominator...

You wanna cast insults and get personal...lets go...I got nothing but time.

well - so be it.

I can not trust this community and have never felt I could - and this is the proof.

Women/girls should not have to continually pacify angry male energy.
It is a submissiveness I cannot 'adopt' so as to be accepted in this community.

B4 changes me  and I don't like that. In my daily life I interact with people with mutual respect. Women and men. And the interactions are positive and loving especially when they're challenging.

I've been enduring my own daily journey of avoiding suicide and don't need what could be a spiritual sanctuary, to be such a harsh place of regular instances of disrespect.

I acknowledge that my energy here has been strongly assertive/defensive.... this is because the 'tone' of so much behaviour here has meant I have never felt I can trust to share who I am - or be vulnerable...

The treatment of me when I'm 'assertive' has been so rude and aggressive it has proved my caution is well founded.
We can see how you, Kaaron - have been far more aggressive in saying "LOO nazis" (etc) and in making such a hurtful reply to me - yet you are getting support from forum members - and I'm not....

this is the proof of what I'm saying.

B4 is de-tuned.