Spiritual and Masturbation

[Mahakali]

If I build up too much energy I get into psych breakdowns. It triggers my schizophrenia, and I get nightmares.

So transcend them. That implies an underlying energetic distortion deep within your subconscious that needs dealing with. Go into your nightmares and beat whatever they're about.

refusing to build up energy will just ensure that those subconscious distortions remain problematic and manifest at the worst possible time.

It's like saying you'll never turn on the power to your computer because you don't like the wallpaper that comes up. Change it; you'll be much happier with a computer.