02-01-2017, 07:13 PM
Duuuude, I'm not rejuvenated in any way. I truly had no intention of ever returning, then one night I had a dream about this place and I don't even remember what happened, but when I woke up it was like something had called me and said, 'you need to go back'.
Still, I didn't, but I see my dream corresponds with the start of the Trump Presidency thread, where the energies I threw out into this community were making the rounds, others also seem to be throwing out those energies into the mix. I really am just here to try and be helpful in lieu of my...Just atrocious attitude. Back then I was going through hell, literally, in my mind.
While I still am to this day, my positive nature is a bit more asserted now a days, even in the midst of blood red rage I'll be able to smile and help someone in need. Plus ever since I discovered I was autistic I've been able to really curb my negative emotions because I realized the ways I feel are not because I'm different from normal, but because I'm just purely a different person.
I'm sure in the afterlife I'll be going through the rounds of distilling my own actions towards others on here and discovering many more lessons I still need to learn in regards to self-control/acceptance.
I can't even bring myself to apologize to some people, because I feel the hypocritical action of doing so would just be insulting. Instead I'll bear this burden and just try to be helpful.
And please, like, oh for f's sake please, if someone see's me losing my mind and blowing up on here, PM me and tell me to calm the f down!
I do have to say though, there are some people I'm very happy to talk to again who I did miss. -cough-Jade-/cough- -cough- -cough- -cough-Aion-/cough- -clears throat- -cough-manyothers-/cough- MM, scuse me
Still, I didn't, but I see my dream corresponds with the start of the Trump Presidency thread, where the energies I threw out into this community were making the rounds, others also seem to be throwing out those energies into the mix. I really am just here to try and be helpful in lieu of my...Just atrocious attitude. Back then I was going through hell, literally, in my mind.
While I still am to this day, my positive nature is a bit more asserted now a days, even in the midst of blood red rage I'll be able to smile and help someone in need. Plus ever since I discovered I was autistic I've been able to really curb my negative emotions because I realized the ways I feel are not because I'm different from normal, but because I'm just purely a different person.
I'm sure in the afterlife I'll be going through the rounds of distilling my own actions towards others on here and discovering many more lessons I still need to learn in regards to self-control/acceptance.
I can't even bring myself to apologize to some people, because I feel the hypocritical action of doing so would just be insulting. Instead I'll bear this burden and just try to be helpful.
And please, like, oh for f's sake please, if someone see's me losing my mind and blowing up on here, PM me and tell me to calm the f down!
I do have to say though, there are some people I'm very happy to talk to again who I did miss. -cough-Jade-/cough- -cough- -cough- -cough-Aion-/cough- -clears throat- -cough-manyothers-/cough- MM, scuse me