How does one purge low vibration desires?

[sjel]

I would perhaps suggest not too look at 'low vibrations' as something to necessarily be 'purged'. There is a subtle activation of imperfection in that thought.

Consider the metaphor that a beautiful song is not a melody of one just one particular note, but rather, a natural and spontaneous flow among many notes, some of those chords residing low on the vibrational scale. All things are appropriate at certain times. Don't judge yourself too harshly.

Yes I've been dealing with catalyst of impurity for quite some time. Actually it's been my whole life, given my Christian upbringing. I went to my old church recently to see what it was like and the message was both positive and negative, I was able to see where my deep rooted confusion stems from. There was a 10 minute segment where the assisting pastor would ask questions like "Are you able to fulfull God's command on your own?" and the congregation would chant, "No. We are all sinful by nature, and increasing our debt daily." Damn. Just by existing are we sinful in the Christian god's eyes.

So yes, judging oneself harshly and negatively is something that is subtly encouraged in certain large minorities of the Christian religion.

When that was over, there was a hymn. It was the most bewildering transition. The assisting pastor looked up from his gloomy notes up to the congregation and said without enthusiasm, "And now let us sing with joy!" But the congregation was wholeheartedly prepared for this, it was as if subconsciously they sighed with relief and opened their collective chakras to allow the real joy to flow through in song. And the head pastor gave a sermon with enthusiasm and that contained a mildly positive message. Essentially, the most potent joy in church seems to come from the joyful hymns. I wonder how many people in there are starting to consciously recognize the mixed message.

Do less what society 'thinks you should do' and more what 'feels right and natural'. The creation is not centered in the intellect, but rather, raw emotion. Learn to FEEL. It is the bridge between the intellectual mind (material) and the intuitive mind (spiritual).

I don't really know what society thinks I should do, I just know what I think society thinks I should do. So rather than drawing on specific actions I should take, I am drawing specifically on the vibration of judgment until I consciously recognize that.

As for the emotion, what's the difference between acting on your emotion and acting from your center being? The center that resides, watching all your emotions? Because acting on emotion seems to draw me into a mindless, pursuant state. Or is it that I'm not acting on the deepest emotion I can sense?

When you can see the perfection even in the so called lower, then that which is no longer needed will fall away. When you try to 'get away from something' you just embrace it closer, and activate it even harder.

How do you train yourself to see perfection in a lower state, then? For example, on that low vibration night, there was a moment when I was out taking a walk to try to jimmy myself out of the lowness (<- here's probably what caused the following, I was trying to avoid it). A heavy truck barreled through our quiet neighborhood, which never happens. In its trail was the overwhelming stench of exhaust. It was suffocating, I felt like the exhaust fumes were penetrating down my lungs and reaching into my metaphysical self. Like negative tendrils of decay.

How might I have treated that situation differently, viewing it as part of the infinite love? As it was, I tried not breathe and lamented the fact that the situation existed.