01-30-2017, 09:59 PM
(01-30-2017, 09:02 AM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote: Well I'm not attracted to women at all. My mom's negativity through my life has ruined that for me.
And when I read interesting things on this site and get excited, I don't feel sexual at all.
I don't recall ever really being excited about watching videos of sex, but I did find them interesting and arousing.
But I'm not into traditional sex, even between 2 men. It's pretty perverse, although I'm not into violent stuff.
Don't fret friend, I'm into weird stuff like tentacle mind-break vore stuff, hypnosis porn, transgender 'shemale' and 'sissy' stuff.
I personally find women attractive but find almost all of them to be in one way or another unappealing personality wise.
I also cannot highly respect women who tease men vehemently anymore, as I find it messed up to wave something someone want's in front of their face then to keep them from it.
We all have our sexual oddities, it's just a part of the distortions of the indigo's interactions with the sexual energies of the lower three chakras, red, orange, and yellow.
For instance, I find it stupidly arousing to strap a woman down and make her orgasm until she's falling in and out of consciousness, at no point is sex even required, I could sit there with a vibrator and a stupidly big grin on my face for hours.
I even devised a method for enacting on a best friend her tentacle fetish by using rubber hosing, polyester fabric, and a lot of lube.
Truly mister Gemini, if you find your own sexual fantasy preferences questionable, then that's a green ray distortion asking you to explore the darker part of your psyche to understand why you like that stuff.
I'll provide myself as an example:
Regards my fascination with the tentacle genre, it's been apparently a very popular fad in the East enough so that a westerner visitor was 'infected' so-to-speak by the eroticism that came with the sight of something with many limbs caressing and fondling the female form in sexual ways.
I personally theorized that this sexual desire was born of originally a sts sexual energy configuration of being overpowered and rendered helpless by an entity with a greater evolutionary advantage over the body, and has since been transformed into the whole spectrum of energies from 'consentacles' to tentacle rape to a mixture.
The overall underlying desire for finding such a genre 'Hot' is a simple psychological desire to be dominated, without the negative effects of being enslaved. Though some people do want that, exceptions always exist.
As for why the additionals of the genre, vore, and mind-break come into play, I've realized that I have a strong desire to not only overwhelm someone with pleasure, but to completely envelope them in it to the point they can't think straight or resist, hence the mind-break. As for the vore, apparently that genre, as does furries, has a VERY LARGE group of people that find it erotic, from men wanting to become the food and be eaten to women wanting to become the sustenance for another.
I think the energies associated behind the cause of the vore erotica is a mixture of memories from 2D vegetation states filtering up into the 3D red ray providing it with a memory of the yearning and pleasure of being consumed, as well as a psychological 3D desire to, once more, be dominated or made helpless in some manner. If not that last part, then it's a distortion of the yellow-ray juxtapositioning over red-ray desires the identity of food onto the yellow-ray identity, making someone yearn to be the food.
This is strictly similar to men who want to be a woman purely out of sexual curiosity and yearning, their identity is being juxtapositioned over their true identity, they're effectively attempting to bring fantasy a step closer to reality.
You will find in sexuality that the mannerisms of Control and Acceptance are somewhat more clearly defined, many perversions can be linked to parental abuse or maltreatment, my mother treated me more like an employee who's only purpose was to do what she said or get my teeth bashed out of my mouth. That's somewhat warped my sexual desire towards the desire to dominate women in lieu of responding to the helplessless that was ingrained in me at a young age by a maternal figure.
There's a core to your perversions, if you wish to call them such. As long as you're not going out forcing yourself on anything, I don't see anything wrong with you entertaining fantasies and sexual desires not attainable in the 3D realm. You're not sexually assaulting benches or trees or dogs or other people. Like, even if you were having sexual intercourse with an animal, as long as you're not clearly hurting it, I could care less. Same goes for if you love your car sexually, or love a pillow or the edge of a table.
Human sexuality has used everything from polished wood to snakes to intestines to animals and inanimate objects to express pleasure. The fact you're not going out and harming anything is means alone to stop judging yourself so harshly.
I mean, Gemini, there are people in the world who cannot become aroused by anything except young girls or boys, others in the world can't pop an erection without seeing a girl pop a balloon by sitting and bouncing on it. Others get off expressly to clowns.
Please be a bit more gentle on yourself. You're not hurting anyone with your sexual desires, well, not anyone but yourself if they disturb you.
Would you or anyone else be willing to share what all specifically it is you all find attractive? I've pretty much shared my big weird three lol.