I haven't posted here before and moreoften than not I have too much pride to ask for help, or don't trust the judgment of those who are willing to listen. I generally call on my Higher Self for wisdom and understanding but I feel my connection is clouded.
I'm emotionally unstable. I never was before, but I am now. In order to better understand the world and its conditions, I thought it would be wise to strive to understand the STS mentality. I've come across certain philosophy, such as the The Protocols of the Elders of Zion, that give great insight into this perspective and the current woes of the world.
However, it has made me bitter. It consumes my thoughts. I know deep down that all entities are other selves and I truly do Love them, but I feel this disappointment with them and anger toward STS entities. It upsets me and hurts my heart so deeply that my fellow brothers and sisters, my biological family as well as every person I know is being manipulated and enslaved without their knowledge by mainstream media and news. I find it unfair and such a cowardly act of psychological warfare.
To watch those I love, such as my selfless and loving biological mother, being brainwashed and manipulated day in and day out, spending her days in worry about nonsense is unbelievably painful. I just want it to stop. I don't know what to do. I don't want to feel this endless pain and this unbearable loneliness anymore. My soul yearns to help others. To teach unity and truth and to be of service.
I wish to support the upcoming harvest, but it seems there are few to harvest?
Is this a second chakra issue? Perhaps an overactive fourth chakra? Any advice
Off topic but perhaps useful:
My Higher Self told me the harvest is a seven year cycle that occurs at the end of a precession cycle of 25,000 years or so, with each year of the final seven year cycle corresponding to a chakra. It told me this cycle began three years ago (Comet I-SON), and in the middle of the fourth year (the middle of the heart), the STS entities are going to implement their long standing plan and final act of deception, causing chaos yet giving STO entities many catalysts to express their Violet Ray Selfhood. In this system, this year would correspond to the Heart.
I'm emotionally unstable. I never was before, but I am now. In order to better understand the world and its conditions, I thought it would be wise to strive to understand the STS mentality. I've come across certain philosophy, such as the The Protocols of the Elders of Zion, that give great insight into this perspective and the current woes of the world.
However, it has made me bitter. It consumes my thoughts. I know deep down that all entities are other selves and I truly do Love them, but I feel this disappointment with them and anger toward STS entities. It upsets me and hurts my heart so deeply that my fellow brothers and sisters, my biological family as well as every person I know is being manipulated and enslaved without their knowledge by mainstream media and news. I find it unfair and such a cowardly act of psychological warfare.
To watch those I love, such as my selfless and loving biological mother, being brainwashed and manipulated day in and day out, spending her days in worry about nonsense is unbelievably painful. I just want it to stop. I don't know what to do. I don't want to feel this endless pain and this unbearable loneliness anymore. My soul yearns to help others. To teach unity and truth and to be of service.
I wish to support the upcoming harvest, but it seems there are few to harvest?
Is this a second chakra issue? Perhaps an overactive fourth chakra? Any advice
Off topic but perhaps useful:
My Higher Self told me the harvest is a seven year cycle that occurs at the end of a precession cycle of 25,000 years or so, with each year of the final seven year cycle corresponding to a chakra. It told me this cycle began three years ago (Comet I-SON), and in the middle of the fourth year (the middle of the heart), the STS entities are going to implement their long standing plan and final act of deception, causing chaos yet giving STO entities many catalysts to express their Violet Ray Selfhood. In this system, this year would correspond to the Heart.