Loving someone more than you love yourself

[Nowheretoday]

Nowheretoday - I noticed you haven't posted. I'm a bit worried.
I still have a burning sensation in my chest. I googled it and it's heart break, I hope you aren't still feeling like throwing up. I guess the heart takes longer to under stand than the mind. Thinking of you.

Hope you are ok.

Thank you very much for your love.
I read a few replies yesterday, it takes an effort to really understand what's being said, there's a lot of thought to it, just now I read all of it and I feel like I need to re-read to really process, I don't think is fair to give lazy replies to these well written posts, anyway...

I'm okay, I haven't been eating well, I haven't gone to the gym, I slept twelve hours yesterday trying not to face the feelings, I work nights, mornings are when the feelings and thoughts are fresh and hit harder, as the day goes by they fade and realize that I'm at peace and free to move on. I did cry today though, nostalgia.

One of the replies, in my opinion, it was dark, there's no acceptance, understanding, love/light.

Here:

We suggest the nature of all manifestation to be illusory and functional only insofar as the entity turns from shape and shadow to the One.

That's all there is to it. That's my faith to face the challenge, that's how I love, embrace, and ask for more pain. I love the feeling of growth I get from feeling immense pain, from processing, distilling the experience. This is how I move on and forgive, by accepting, by loving everything that life brings, there's a quote I can't find that says the Creator is every emotion, every feeling, every thought, the Infinite One is all that there is, how can you reject something that's you.

People that need the most growth offer the most catalyst, we need them to grow. Still trying to find the answer to my question.