Beating psychotronic weapons

[Aion]

stuff

It's a complex thing.

I definitely lean negative, I don't really have problems with a hierarchy as long as I'm left to my own devices, and I don't need to be at the top as long as I'm not on the bottom. I have a huge mind control fetish, to be perfectly honest, and I love to immerse myself in the lower astral, to the point where I'm disgusted by "positive" vibes a lot of the time.

But the LHP is a solitary approach, of guidance rather than groups, and the idea of a LHP social memory complex is an absurd one... the only true LHPers would be the ones at the top of the hierarchy, and a true LHP "group" would be a place to share mutually beneficial ideas and further LHP thought, not an actual group in the way that there are RHP groups - I'd be very wary of anyone claiming otherwise. LHP-RHP hybrids are something different IMO.

I also feel like what Ra refers to as STS is not what I think about when I say "LHP". I don't think it's necessary to hurt people to develop the self - I want a feeling of alone-ness more than anything else, at least right now. I just want to do my own thing...

Just learn to use your Merkabah.

http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/sep2/merkaba.htm

It's all mutilated, though; this is the problem. If it were in its natural state, I would have no problems. It's ludicrously messed up, and I'm not sure what exactly to do about it. All I really need is to find the right configuration, but it's hard.

What do you think I should do? How do I go about finding the right configuration?

Some kind of an etheric implant was placed into my lower spine, and I'm somewhat concerned about activating whatever's down there.

It makes sense that activating this through lower astral frequencies placed me into the hell dimension in which I currently reside, but right now I'm at a loss as to how to find the correct configuration.

Perhaps by modulating microwaves somehow? Or hitting the right frequencies in my etheric body?

This actually does make some amount of sense, though. Escaping must be possible.

No not at all. I have no idea if you experience clairaudience whatsoever. I had presumed that at the top of your post you used the term metaphorically, although you have mentioned this in the past, I do not know to what degree you experience it, if anything. What I am implying is that I have witnessed what insanity looks like, what paranoia feels like as well as being stuck in a nihilistic mind set. What I am saying, and you seem to agree, is that your perspective is under your control and I can testify to the power of self forgiveness and the forgiveness of others. Metaphysically you are freeing yourself from a prison by walking through the walls rather than searching for tools and techniques to aid in your escape.

And yes, there definitely is some weird stuff occurring. But those entrenched in the deep state still fart, still snore at night and would look just as dead in a coffin as anyone else.

Why, though? Couldn't intelligent infinity remove the need to fart, snore, or lay in a coffin? Wouldn't anyone who's made any real progress have transcended such things?

Well, I mean, just looking at your post here it seems obvious that you are where you are precisely because you want to be there. You are gleefully playing in the same fields you claim to want to be free from and fetishize the same control that is being pushed upon you. You're not stupid, you're quite sharp and it baffles me that you cannot see this. You yourself are obsessed with the very things you are experiencing and a complete unwillingness to shift your desires means there will be no adjacent changes in the external reality. You know exactly how it works, but you keep.hoping there is some way you can have your cake and eat it too.

By all means you can keep trying with what you're doing, but my understanding is that no changes occur in reality until changes occur within the self. From there, it is realizing you are slave to your own desires and deciding what to do about that.

And no, I am not suggesting that these things aren't real or that they are illusory or that there isn't some really nasty s*** out there, what I am suggesting is that you are experiencing that which is a function of your chosen emotion, mental and physical environment. You chose this, and so to go elsewhere, you must choose another way. You cannot leave the crossroads and stay in its cross. You must choose a way out, but so far it seems you choose a path that loops right back in to it. Circles endlessly forever. Time to break the chain or its just gonna keep going and going and going.

I guess the other alternative is to sink in to a deep victim mentality, but I don't think you're the type for that.