"You create your reality"

[Aion]

I do not mean suicide of the body, suicide of the mind, of the identity.

If your goal is building then you need order. Without order no building is possible as entropy will dissolve things before they are even made.

I will profess that I do not think black magic alone holds the answer to what you seek, but holding to it will limit you.

I'm confused. Ego death would imply death of the body, or at the very least, its dissolution and reconstruction, would it not?

Also, dissolution is generally the prime way I approach things, because it is the ultimate power. Order is automatic, so if you approach things through chaos an dissolution, then you can simply keep breaking down order until it hits the right configurations.

I don't know if I'm expressing what I mean very clearly, but.

At any rate, do you have any idead on what would be a good start to a practical solution? There's a lot to be factored in, here.

WWIII is in the works, a bunch of weird s*** is happening, the planet is under attack, my body is screwed up and potentially damaged, my chakras are all f***** up, and friends and family members of mine might be in trouble.

I really need to stop sitting on my ass in front of the computer, theorizing, but I need to figure out where to go from here.

I do understand what you are expressing although I admit I feel you have some pretty strong biases. We all do, of course. I'm not sure I would agree that order is automatic and chaos is not, since entropy is pretty automatic. I think that is maybe a choice you have made. Personally I view them as metabolism. Anabolism and catabolism are both required to maintain a body in any state. To become balanced is to bring these processes in to dynamic equilibrium.

The body does not die due to ego death because the ego is instantly reborn anew, innocent and open. It does mean reorganization though and I do believe it can even affect physical changes. For the mind death is but a doorway to a new self.

I think everything is automatic until you choose to be consciously creative. Personally I see order and chaos as equal tools, both which are required for creation.

On a practical level I am not sure my suggestion would be appealing or even seem useful, but it would be to explore your opposite self. That is, to delve in to all that you see yourself as Not. Open yourself to everything you don't want to be and accept that as part of All that you are.