I'm drawn to this kind of discussion.
It's a personal thing - in all honesty I feel ill equipped to deal outside anything of the personal till I've made me pure
I think that’s why I feel unable to talk in technical terms, as I feel any person will bring there own bias.
Anyhow. My Mum died to cancer, she was young, I was young too.
At the time, I recall my Gran, (dad's Mum) pinning me against a wall telling me it was my fault my Mum was dyeing.
At the time I was indignant.... how could I cause her cells to mutate?
These days I’m more philosophical - I could cause the catalyst for her cells to mutate.
I was a very 'free spirit' from a young age, I find it difficult to accept norm, rules, others ideas.
I daily try to treat people fairly and with respect as I'd expect them to treat me; I have all my life..... Even so at school - but hated the constraints of rules at school; I felt I was restrained for my age as appose to my understanding and responded often inappropriately.
My mother tried to constrain me for my own safety….. not trusting me to live and learn by my own mistakes.
It lead to much disharmony. I can completely appreciate now a way I may have been responsible for my mother getting cancer, yet I don't blame myself.
In the same way as harsh as it sounds I completely accept my Mother dyeing as part of my own path, had she remained alive I would have left home anyway and torn a hole in my family.
My current partner has anxiety/fear issues, and an inability to deal with his own though processes, yet a deep deep social conscience. - I realise this is a catalyst for me.
I'm trying to work out if it's an error in the way I see people, or in the way I react to them.
I now also have the challenge of my own children and the desire to protect vs the desire to let them grow.
Live and learn live and learn. 
It's a personal thing - in all honesty I feel ill equipped to deal outside anything of the personal till I've made me pure
I think that’s why I feel unable to talk in technical terms, as I feel any person will bring there own bias. Anyhow. My Mum died to cancer, she was young, I was young too.
At the time, I recall my Gran, (dad's Mum) pinning me against a wall telling me it was my fault my Mum was dyeing.
At the time I was indignant.... how could I cause her cells to mutate?
These days I’m more philosophical - I could cause the catalyst for her cells to mutate.
I was a very 'free spirit' from a young age, I find it difficult to accept norm, rules, others ideas.
I daily try to treat people fairly and with respect as I'd expect them to treat me; I have all my life..... Even so at school - but hated the constraints of rules at school; I felt I was restrained for my age as appose to my understanding and responded often inappropriately.
My mother tried to constrain me for my own safety….. not trusting me to live and learn by my own mistakes.
It lead to much disharmony. I can completely appreciate now a way I may have been responsible for my mother getting cancer, yet I don't blame myself.
In the same way as harsh as it sounds I completely accept my Mother dyeing as part of my own path, had she remained alive I would have left home anyway and torn a hole in my family.
My current partner has anxiety/fear issues, and an inability to deal with his own though processes, yet a deep deep social conscience. - I realise this is a catalyst for me.
I'm trying to work out if it's an error in the way I see people, or in the way I react to them.
I now also have the challenge of my own children and the desire to protect vs the desire to let them grow.
Live and learn
live and learn.