______

[Infinite Unity]

I also have a fluctuating mental state. I also have a longing like yours. I just wish to live in the woods, and commune, teach/learn, learn/teach about the one infinite. The energy is so high, I can really start to experiment with the energies, of my chakras. I also feel like I am on some euphoric drug. Beyond all that I believe in you. I know your not crazy brother. Unconditional love of the creator is orgasmic brother. Everything seems so much more beautiful. I can literally just meditate and draw in sweet sweet oxygen, and feel love vibrate all over. If more energy is coming the 11, if it is of the squaring effect, I will not doubt be able to open the gateway. I honestly could probably do it now. Keep your faith in the one up. I love you sjel. You are beautiful.