How do I stay more grounded in reality?

[sjel]

I agree with isis. It seems like your will is divided between two things. On one hand you seem to not mind to lose yourself to insanity and space out in the forests of Washington, but on the other hand it seems like you understand that it won't be of service to others, to which I want to add that it would probably not be of service to yourself either. If I remember it correctly, Ra mentioned that Alestair Crowley got overstimulated by true nature of things, and got insane. He got alienated to other selves and suffered from spiritual pain. That needed a lot of healing in time/space.

My humble opinion is that you need to sit down and work through this issue. Because if you do decide to stay sane, there are probably a lot of techniques out there that will help you to ground. You just need to find one which works for you. Being in the nature for instance might be helpful. To feel through your feet the ground and perhaps ask spirits, guiding system, your dear and near ones or whatever you believe in to help you to heal and to understand yourself. Perhaps being in water may do the same thing. To ask water, the angels and other friends or family to help you with the same thing. Q'uo probably talked about it at some point too. There is help out there, cause you are not alone, but you have to decide what you want to do with this catalyst first, if you want to "fight" or "flight" this so to speak.

Whatever you decide, much love and light to you, my friend. I hope that you find the light you are looking for!

I definitely feel the allure of the "insanity", but in the sense that I want the creativity that can come from it. I just feel like it's coming much too fast, too early in my life. I want to stay grounded so that I can continue to positively interact with the kids I tutor. Water helped, I swam vigorously today and I felt like it purged some foggy energy. I prayed as well, I will continue that. Thank you Ankh