(10-01-2016, 11:53 PM)anagogy Wrote:(10-01-2016, 11:35 PM)Mahakali Wrote: And I wish I knew how to get to freedom. It's there, it's possible, and I want it more than anything, but there's so much limitation.
This world can certainly be rough at times. I feel you on that front. :-/
What does your ideal reality look like Mahakali? What does 'freedom' look like from your perspective if you don't mind my asking?
My kundalini, mind, and sexual energy unblocked and the ability to do with them, for myself, what I please.
I had a lot of natural magickal talent as a kid. The enslavers try to keep it from me. They are trying to tie me up in a full-body suit that prevents magick, which makes me more likely than anything to get violent with them. I feel like it can be fixed, now that I understand the fluid nature of reality... all I have to do is focus on the way it used to feel, which creates that image on the plasmic level, and then it starts coming back.
I want to be able to worship as I please, direct my energies as I please, access to solitude, and the ability to create my own world on the astral level so that I can achieve salvation.
My ultimate goal would be to use this life to fill my mind and spirit with as much information (intellectual and emotional) as possible, and to create on the astral level a place to go when I die where I could enjoy myself, and also to enjoy myself in that place while I'm here.
I remember someone (maybe you) posting about how sometimes, ghosts will end up hallucinating an astral reality after death, with some degree of vibrational overlap between the two, and are even sometimes unreachable.
Sounds nice, depending on how it's done.
I wanna reach the higher astral planes of emotional, spiritual, and intellectual fulfillment. I want to create and be free.