Meditation Within Eternity

[AnthroHeart]

Thank you Opal. It makes sense to realize that I already am that, instead of desiring it. It is within me.

My meditations don't get that deep. They used to be better.

I have to realize that maybe Earth isn't the place to realize this. I have all of eternity to do so, so a short life I shouldn't expect it.

I've made myself sick trying to "transform". It's made my body hurt. And I haven't seen any change.

What if your true soul desire is to stop always being an anthro?

I don't really know. I'm confused about the whole thing. I thought that was what I wanted, but it makes me sick to my stomach with headache when I focus on it.
Or maybe it's my meds.