nobody knows me

[Chandlersdad]

i'm rather in love with death, it's a beautiful way out to total awareness

I don't think entities plan a 3 D incarnation with a script that includes suicide, unless that is somehow necessary to firm up a negative polarization.

If you are here, you are meant to be here. Stop trying to escape the lessons by fantasizing about how lovely it would be to die and leave here. That is a cop-out.

Just admit that life is hard. Catalysts are hard, but often scripted before birth. You just don't want to deal with them. You prefer to focus on death as a way out.

But if you don't work through the catalysts in this life, you will just have to do it all over again. And the more catalyst is avoided or ignored, the more it comes back harder and more harsh.

I was honestly concerned about you, since I have been there in that dark place.

Since further dialogue would probably be useless, I will simply wish you the very best.