Do you have polarity?

[Glow]

I'm certainly positive but I'm strangely shifting.

I from early childhood have been willing to martyr my own needs and emotions for anyone, even those who were strangers or did me wrong. It seems now I am becoming more comfortable receiving though, that still is and has always been quite hard for me. I don't like to take.

I'm learning sometimes letting someone serve me is actually a way to provide service. It's still quite hard and not because of any feelings of unworthiness just an aversion I've developed.

It's very strange. lol still positive but oddly less sto strictly somehow, yet it still seems like an increase in positivity. Law of confusion.