I just made the mistake of trying to channel alone.

[sjel]

Did you experience actual spirits (not negative entities) on LSD or DMT?

Yes, on DMT, almost every time, I visited my old friends, my social memory complex (but I didn't know that's what it was at the time.) My guides were there on every deep trip, including a profound DXM + cannabis experience. On DMT, most certainly, my teachers could not have rushed faster toward me to encourage me, teach me, reassure me, love me. I phrase it this way because sometimes I forget that I have immense help behind the illusion, I think I'm alone a lot of the time. Lsd I never really had contact with specific beings, just the vast awareness of Self.

Whenever I get super alone, I think about those DMT trips, they were full of so much love. I don't remember the specifics, obviously, because I was in the sixth density world (presumably), and I could only take back cartoonish concepts with me, that nevertheless reassure. One time I came back and the image I still remember is sitting around laughing with all my sixth density friends, going "haha, isn't that crazy how seriously you take those problems down there?"

I'm so sad, alone. I miss my friends, they understand me and I understood them. I wonder if I got the urge to channel merely from a sense of loneliness rather than a genuine curiosity for metaphysical wisdom.