Session 1 - original thought ?

[anagogy]

It is my understanding that at step 2, Infinity becomes self-aware, and is still without any distortion of any kind, there is not even the first distortion of freewill at that level of awareness.  One step down from the state of Infinity becoming aware (Intelligent Infinity), is Intelligent Infinity becoming aware of the concept of free will and deciding to explore this idea, which is the first distortion.  This first decision we might say is the second distortion.

So the Original Thought is simply the first thought that ever found focus within infinity, thus making infinity intelligent. Everything knowable exists within this first thought and all that sparked from it.

I believe this Original Thought can be best summed up using English words as: I AM !

From this I AM, there is no many-ness yet at this level of awareness.

I guess, from my vantage point, the idea of infinity changing from one state (unaware) to another state (aware), would necessarily involve distortion from its original state (unaware). To my way of thinking, any sort of change, whatsoever, would necessarily be a kind of distortion or ripple in unity.

Infinity, from my point of view, is changeless because all is contained by the scope of that unbounded conceptual essence. Thus awareness, or intelligence, is necessarily contained therein. I see all distortions as simply focusing down, or narrowing the range, of that infinity. Sort of like whittling a block of wood down to a specific shape and form.

Consider the cosmology presented:

13.5 Questioner: Thank you. Can you tell me of the earliest, first known thing in the creation?

Ra: I am Ra. The first known thing in the creation is infinity. The infinity is creation.

13.6 Questioner: From this infinity then must have come what we experience as creation. What was the next step or the next evolvement?

Ra: I am Ra. Infinity became aware. This was the next step.

13.7 Questioner: After this, what happened?

Ra: Awareness led to the focus of infinity into infinite energy. You have called this by various vibrational sound complexes, the most common to your ears being “Logos” or “Love.” The Creator is the focusing of infinity as an aware or conscious principle called by us as closely as we can create understanding/learning in your language, intelligent infinity.

Please notice how in this first exchange of the creation cosmology there is *no mention* of the 1st distortion, free will, and then they immediately proceed towards discussing the 2nd distortion, i.e. the Logos. This leads me to conclude the 1st distortion of "infinity became aware" is actually: "infinity discerning the concept of finity, which also just happens to include what we call free-will". Or alternatively, "infinity became aware of the possibility of something other than undistorted unity"

13.12 Questioner: Could you tell me how intelligent infinity became, shall we say (I’m having difficulty with some of the language), how intelligent infinity became individualized from itself?

Ra: I am Ra. This is an appropriate question.The intelligent infinity discerned a concept. This concept was discerned due to freedom of will of awareness. This concept was finity. This was the first and primal paradox or distortion of the Law of One. Thus the one intelligent infinity invested itself in an exploration of many-ness. Due to the infinite possibilities of intelligent infinity there is no ending to many-ness. The exploration, thus, is free to continue infinitely in an eternal present.

I can't logically see how unawareness could ever lead, randomly, and spontaneously to total awareness. It's sort of like the logical conundrum of starting a universe from nothingness. There is no room in nothingness for somethingness to come about. Similarly, unawareness randomly generating awareness doesn't make logical sense (at least to me). No awareness of existence is tantamount to not existing. It makes far more sense, to my mind that awareness was always there, and it simply zeroed down its focus on a portion of its own infinite substance which contains all conceivable permutations of consciousness.

They also say:

27.4 Questioner: Would you define the word intelligent in the concept of intelligent infinity?

Ra: I am Ra. We shall address the entire spectrum of this question before defining as requested. Your language, using vibrational sound complexes, can be at best an approximation of that which is closer to an understanding, if you will, of the nature of conscious thought. Perceptions are not the same as sound vibration complexes and the attempt to define will therefore be a frustrating one for you, although we are happy to aid you within the limits of your sound vibration complexes.

To define intelligent apart from infinity is difficult, for these two vibration complexes equal one concept. It is much like attempting to divide your sound vibration concept, faith, into two parts. We shall attempt to aid you however.

27.5 Questioner: It is not necessary to divide it. The definition of intelligent infinity as one part is sufficient. Could you please now define intelligent infinity?

Ra: I am Ra. This is exponentially simpler and less confusing. There is unity. This unity is all that there is. This unity has a potential and kinetic. The potential is intelligent infinity. Tapping this potential will yield work. This work has been called by us, intelligent energy.

The nature of this work is dependent upon the particular distortion of free will which in turn is the nature of a particular intelligent energy or kinetic focus of the potential of unity or that which is all.

Right here they state that intelligent and infinity cannot be divided, and that unity is intelligent infinity.

I suppose its just an difference of interpretation of the material, but I was always under the impression that the 1st distortion (free will) was the same distortion as "infinity became aware". It might not even be self-awareness, it could just be "infinity became aware of the concept of finity". I just can't, for the life of me, accept that awareness was not, by default, present in infinity. It violates the very core of my intuitive perception about the nature of reality, but each to their own. It is, of course, possible I'm wrong, but that is what I truly feel in my heart of hearts.

Anyhow, thanks for sharing your thoughts.