my mental illness and medication are ruining my life

[Billy]

I often feel like a loser and like something is wrong with me too INM.  I resonate with you 110% about not knowing where one is going.  I'm scared that I will never arrive and will remain lost in the abyss forever.  I don't really have much advice to offer apart from saying that you are not alone and that many people in the world feel the same way.  I'm glad you are feeling better.

Here is a spontaneous poem:

When life is scary and hope feels far
Look inside and find a star
A star thats you and you are it
A star the shines, forever lit

Now realize that all you see
Is part of you, including me
If all is love and all is light
Then even night, is oh so bright

Perhaps a little cringe worthy, but maybe it will make you feel better