Session 35 - Abraham Lincoln Walk-In - Wrong Date!

[Jade]

I resonate more with Gary's perspective on this topic.  Does our past not make us who we are?  Experience shapes us and is the catalyst for new ways of perceiving and being.  With all of our choices being so linked, I can't really fathom the idea that you can change one without it effecting each and every other.  I'm not saying that it is impossible but it doesn't really bode well with me.  With 3rd density being a place of choice and limitation, it seems that a single fixed time-line is more appropriate for such an adventure.  This star trek quote is appropriate:

There are many parts of my youth that I'm not proud of... there were loose threads... untidy parts of me that I would like to remove. But when I pulled on one of those threads... it unraveled the tapestry of my life

It's a grand paradox, indeed. But this is why acceptance is crucial - why feel the need to go around altering the past/future? Experience the present, and move on to the next present moment. I have no desire to rewrite or forget my past, but due to trauma, I have a lot of gaps in memory. My childhood is a long gray stretch punctuated by certain events. If I take those gray areas and find tiny little Jade and send her love in those dark moments that were worth erasing, some part of that experience is altered and the ripples carry forwards (and backwards). I'm not trying to insert false memories or experiences into my story. But then what happens, I believe, is that if further down the line, I have an event resurface as a memory that hasn't been thought about in a while - a true (?) memory - then maybe when it comes back up, I am able to look back on that experience with love and not pain. I'm able to retroactively find love in a difficult moment. And I think that affects all "times" in my experience.