If you had one single wish...

[Minyatur]

The end of my beingness.

You want nothingness or to merge with the One?

I think I want nothingness.

But I do acknowledge that while this is a lingering feeling that seems to ever be part of myself, it will eventually come to pass and transmute into a desire of merging with the One to find this peace that I seek. That will be a more positive focus that I am ever slowly moving toward.

Nothingness would also mean ending other things which is not what I desire, so i guess what I truly desire is for the portion of the Creator I incarnate to vanish from existence, to fade from the All. Or at least it seems to be a desire within my soul, to just drop existence itself.