to be harvestable, must one be generally full of joy??

[APeacefulWarrior]

The harvest concept has caused me quite a bit of distress if I am to be honest, for the very reasons that APW touched upon.  I get scared that I have not been good enough and that because of my lack of goodness and negativity I won't be welcome back home, and will instead have to repeat another cycle.  I know it is silly.  The whole wanderer concept too, while comforting, I think can sometimes make matters worse as we put unrealistic expectation on ourselves.  We are humans.  We are creatures of third density while we are here.  I don't think it is very realistic to expect oneself to be some perfected being who goes around shining love and light 24/7 without ever practicing negativity.  Yeah, this is something I really struggle with. 

I like to keep in mind that even Jesus\Yeshua had at least one incident on record where he totally lost his temper. Absolutely nobody expects someone to be a true indefatigable paragon of virtue while on Earth, not even Wanderers. There's simply too much negativity in the 'atmosphere', so to speak, to remain wholly positive. And someone who goes around comparing themselves to impossible ideals of moral perfection is going to be in danger of backsliding into the self-loathing nihilism of Puritanism and other Calvinistic beliefs.

But I think it's also important to remember this is not about "goodness." There is no good and evil in any objective sense. The entire Abrahamic-inspired idea that one has to be "good enough" to get into Heaven is an utter distortion, intended primarily as a control system for uneducated villagers. No one is sitting around tallying up your deeds, putting beans into a moral scale to see which side outweighs the other. Well, no one except potentially oneself.

Polarity, density, and Harvest-ability are metaphysical, not judgmental. Your behavior is an extension of your energy levels, rather than the other way around. Sufficiently large amounts of willpower and deliberate mindful action can shift the underlying energy levels somewhat, but either way, behavior is still basically a byproduct of these things.

Behavior by itself really has very little to do with Harvestability and\or 'going home'.