08-12-2016, 03:04 AM
I was able to access intelligent infinity from a young age.
Now, my body, mind, and soul are being attacked. Both by "negative" entities and "positive" ones.
I feel like the positive entities feel like I'm evil, and don't trust me with it.
The negative ones are just a*******.
And there's no denying that I'm one sick f***, but if I want to get better, I have to go through all the horror in my head. And there is a lot of it. I need full access to my mind, soul, intelligent infinity.
I've read that access to intelligent infinity is controlled by "advanced entities".
Deep down, I'm a nice guy. I've definitely done some evil deeds, but I'm sorry for certain things, and would like to make restitution for them.
I can understand why certain entities intervened in my actions, because I was demon possessed and would have killed innocent people if there had been no intervention. In some cases, I'm glad that I was stopped. One time, I was on a bunch of drugs and ended up stabbing some guy because he was making fun of me. Would have killed him if something hadn't stopped it. Other things like that, too.
That said, I can't just sit down and take "punishment" or live in an etheric prison. I want to go up. I crave it, and I feel that if I really want it, really try hard enough, really willpower through it, I can get there...
My life has been awful, my suffering infinite, and I don't see why I should suffer more. Nothing scares me. I don't feel pain, at least not the way that most people do. It's just a sensation; it's all pain. Everything hurts. Existing hurts terribly.
I don't think I, or anyone else, should suffer from what the creator does to the creator. If I was in charge, I'd hand out intelligent infinity like candy to everyone - thus making everyone powerful and everyone safe.
In that sense, I'm STO. I'd rather radiate than suck. I'd rather live in a society where everyone is free, privacy is a social norm, and knowledge is shared to allow each and every person to do their True Will.
On the other hand, my vibes are not positive. I love depression, hatred, lulz.
But I don't care to interact with other people. I just want my own little bubble where I can work out all the trauma I'm dealing with. I don't want to interact with other-selves except as a way to intensify knowledge. And if I have intelligent infinity, there is no reason to harm or control others, because I can just create whatever reality I want, without conscious other-selves.
I don't see what's wrong with this. I'm not pro-totalitarianism, and I won't bow down to a system that just wants to make me feel bad and keep me locked in cycles of reincarnation.
I'm going for it. I need my mind, heart, soul, intelligent infinity, in order to get better. There's a LOT of trauma and negative karmic attachments that need to be transmuted. If that doesn't happen, I'm going straight to the Pit
But I'm confused about why the "advanced entities" are keeping me away from intelligent infinity? They might be an obstacle, but, if I have to, I'm going to go through them. Anything is possible, and I crave spiritual development more than anything at all.
Could anyone help me out? I need to break free of this etheric prison and restore my god-given abilities. I'll do anything to accomplish this goal. I refuse to live like this. I can't take it anymore. I can't be a part of that world. I can't be what they are trying to make me. I need to transmute.
And anything is possible. Everything is made of the same basic substance. Even if my body is damaged, the information to fix it exists. It's just a chaotic, holographic mass of particles held together by the time dimension...
Now, my body, mind, and soul are being attacked. Both by "negative" entities and "positive" ones.
I feel like the positive entities feel like I'm evil, and don't trust me with it.
The negative ones are just a*******.
And there's no denying that I'm one sick f***, but if I want to get better, I have to go through all the horror in my head. And there is a lot of it. I need full access to my mind, soul, intelligent infinity.
I've read that access to intelligent infinity is controlled by "advanced entities".
Deep down, I'm a nice guy. I've definitely done some evil deeds, but I'm sorry for certain things, and would like to make restitution for them.
I can understand why certain entities intervened in my actions, because I was demon possessed and would have killed innocent people if there had been no intervention. In some cases, I'm glad that I was stopped. One time, I was on a bunch of drugs and ended up stabbing some guy because he was making fun of me. Would have killed him if something hadn't stopped it. Other things like that, too.
That said, I can't just sit down and take "punishment" or live in an etheric prison. I want to go up. I crave it, and I feel that if I really want it, really try hard enough, really willpower through it, I can get there...
My life has been awful, my suffering infinite, and I don't see why I should suffer more. Nothing scares me. I don't feel pain, at least not the way that most people do. It's just a sensation; it's all pain. Everything hurts. Existing hurts terribly.
I don't think I, or anyone else, should suffer from what the creator does to the creator. If I was in charge, I'd hand out intelligent infinity like candy to everyone - thus making everyone powerful and everyone safe.
In that sense, I'm STO. I'd rather radiate than suck. I'd rather live in a society where everyone is free, privacy is a social norm, and knowledge is shared to allow each and every person to do their True Will.
On the other hand, my vibes are not positive. I love depression, hatred, lulz.
But I don't care to interact with other people. I just want my own little bubble where I can work out all the trauma I'm dealing with. I don't want to interact with other-selves except as a way to intensify knowledge. And if I have intelligent infinity, there is no reason to harm or control others, because I can just create whatever reality I want, without conscious other-selves.
I don't see what's wrong with this. I'm not pro-totalitarianism, and I won't bow down to a system that just wants to make me feel bad and keep me locked in cycles of reincarnation.
I'm going for it. I need my mind, heart, soul, intelligent infinity, in order to get better. There's a LOT of trauma and negative karmic attachments that need to be transmuted. If that doesn't happen, I'm going straight to the Pit
But I'm confused about why the "advanced entities" are keeping me away from intelligent infinity? They might be an obstacle, but, if I have to, I'm going to go through them. Anything is possible, and I crave spiritual development more than anything at all.
Could anyone help me out? I need to break free of this etheric prison and restore my god-given abilities. I'll do anything to accomplish this goal. I refuse to live like this. I can't take it anymore. I can't be a part of that world. I can't be what they are trying to make me. I need to transmute.
And anything is possible. Everything is made of the same basic substance. Even if my body is damaged, the information to fix it exists. It's just a chaotic, holographic mass of particles held together by the time dimension...