Spazzing out..need insight..HELP!

[Jade]

I'm going to be honest here. Just because this man offers readings to others and refused you doesn't mean there's something wrong with you - in fact, it's more likely the "problem" lies on the other end. Of course, all is one, so this in turn becomes your problem since you reached out and connected this person. And here we are.

In truth, what I believe happens in these cases, if we have created ourselves to be good mirrors for others (many of us in service have) - others look at us and see their own flaws reflected back to them. In reality, this man is probably struggling with his own feelings of "evilness" and "darkness" - I mean, if this is what is being reflected towards him, this is what his world is created of. Your lesson here is learning to not let the "darkness" of others' realities seep into your own. This will come with practice as you socialize with others more. It's why Ra teaches that the mind comes first and then the body - you can be perfectly balanced within the mind complex, but it's really interacting with others in third density manifestation that "tests" our abilities. And the tests are MEANT to throw us off balance, so that we can learn to more efficiently rebalance.

Now what? Don't let this stop you from reaching out to others, asking for help, and taking what they say to heart. Continue through your shyness. Continue to try to integrate your unique and light-filled being with the rest of reality, and you will find those who will aid you with kindness and not rejection. Of course, this involves you accepting and not rejecting parts of yourself - the real work!!