Wanders and homosexuality

[Chandlersdad]

I'm homosexual and I consider myself a wanderer. I don't feel attached to the "identity" though. (As I wrote this a tiny little white feather landed in front of my face)

I don't think being homosexual and a wanderer are incompatible at all. First, because we have many incarnations as male or female. I love being a man, but I can easily tune into feminine energy. (Probably because I've had a lot of experience with it) And the Earth right now is very crowded. Ra's explanation makes sense.
(The poster above me detailed it excellently, thank you!)

I also don't fit in with the gay men who are Earth natives. I have yet to find a man who is a serious spiritual seeker who I can share my path with as companions. The sharing of one's life is not too common for gay men.

I feel like being homosexual is appropriate for me in this incarnation. It's serving me well on my path. (I don't want kids, I feel my child is my spiritual path) I also feel that the Union of male and female is sacramental. It's just not for me at this time on Earth.

**edit: I am reading the Law of One and came across a description that speaks to me about this topic:

32.9 Questioner: I am assuming from what we have previously looked at… we have on Earth today and have had in the past fourth-, fifth-, and sixth-density Wanderers. As they come into incarnation in the physical of this density for a period as a Wanderer, what types of polarizations with respect to these various rays do they find affecting them? Can you tell me that?
Ra: I am Ra. I believe I grasp the thrust of your query. Please ask further if this answer is not sufficient.

Fourth-density Wanderers, of which there are not many, will tend to choose those entities which seem to be full of love or in need of love. There is the great possibility/probability of entities making errors in judgment due to the compassion with which other-selves are viewed.

The fifth-density Wanderer is one who is not tremendously affected by the stimulus of the various rays of other-self and in its own way offers itself when a need is seen. Such entities are not likely to engage in the, shall we say, custom of your peoples called marriage and are very likely to feel an aversion to childbearing and child-raising due to the awareness of the impropriety of the planetary vibrations relative to the harmonious vibrations of the density of light.

The sixth-density, whose means of propagation you may liken to what you call fusion, is likely to refrain, to a great extent, from the bisexual reproductive programming of the bodily complex and instead seek out those with whom the sexual energy transfer is of the complete fusion nature insofar as this is possible in manifestation in third density.

The sharing of one's life with another is NOT rare with gay men. While many young gay men "play the field", many settle down into committed relationships. Perhaps one problem about spirituality common to gay men is that they do not realize there is an alternative to the options provided by American society. Generally, Christianity is seen as the only option. Since Christianity remains harsh and illogically hateful of gay people, many gay people leave Christianity. This is a classic case of throwing the baby (spirituality) out with the bath water (Christianity). Happily, I began studying metaphysics at a young age. I read the SETH books which broadened my view greatly. But if gay men do not seem spiritual, it is because our society's institutional spiritualism has cast them out. They are not wanted! Therefore, many gay men resign themselves to living without it. Yet, when I have discussed spirituality itself with many gay men, most have an INTERNALIZED spirituality, which is ultimately much more mature than merely having faith in a dogma. Such men feel aligned with a greater reality. As for LOVE, I think gay men have a tremendous capacity for love since they have a heightened feminine aspect that allows them to open up to love in ways that might be difficult for a straight man. Our culture lays a heavy trip on straight men to be hard, tough, and competitive. "Be a man" is said to them in terms of "toughen up". Being an American man does not usually include guidelines for being gentle, kind and caring (except perhaps towards children, the elderly, and a spouse). Gay men in contrast often have a desire to be loved and to love. This may, however, be deeply hidden under an armor of disdain and distance. Gay men have been hurt greatly by this society. They tend to form a hard casing around their heart. In a sense, gay men are often a form of abused child. My psychiatrist even said that I had a case of Post Traumatic Stress syndrome simply from being gay in this society, especially during my life time (1952 onward. When I was growing up there were NO depictions of gay people anywhere. I felt like the only gay person on the planet). So I ask you to be more kind to gay men in your thoughts. They are the walking wounded, and some react in dysfunctional ways. For example,. some overcompensate by acting superior to others and becoming judgmental (as they have been judged all their lives). But many have survived with an intact heart that yearns to love.