Christianity's repression of meditation

[Parsons]

I would like to address two things here: my theories on why Christianity would suppress meditation and why I think you still (occasionally) experience that fear.

I think that in order for a religion such as Christianity to survive (especially so long), it needs strong coherency in it's tenets. I like to think of it like a submarine; if there are any major design flaws that would cause leaks, the whole ship will sink. I think that's why some religions / cults gain a lot of traction at first, but quickly sink after a few years. With other short lived faiths / philosophies, it's as though the submarine dove anyways and sank relatively quickly. In the case of Christianity, I think a slow but serious leak would form if it encouraged meditation. The reason that leak (in logic) would form, is meditation is a surefire path to (eventually) find the truth of the unity of creation. I think any religion that suppresses free thought by telling you what to believe and avoiding encouraging finding the truth for yourself, is going to be much more coherent over time and potentially have many more followers than a religion that does not. I think that at some point someone realized this consciously and shaped Christianity with that in mind. However, at this point, I think most Christians in positions of power within the religion are no longer consciously aware of that and are just blindly following tradition.

When it comes to your personal unexplained fear, my theory is it has something to do with the 'thought form' for Christianity. I'm pretty sure you are aware of that concept, but I'll give a brief explanation in case you don't or other readers don't. When many people believe in a specific religion or philosophy, a thought form / egregore forms. It has been discusses elsewhere, but I firmly believe one has formed around this forum community (just for example). Around this thought form forms beliefs commonly held by the people surrounding it. The more common and more strongly believed, the greater the influence it has on this thought form. In the case of Christianity, the thought form(s) surrounding it are extremely powerful because so many people follow the religion. If many Christians believe that meditation and similar pursuits are 'evil', it becomes a part of the thought form. Now I realize you hold the Ra Material in much higher regard (for lack of better terminology) and you don't consciously believe that meditation is 'evil', but that doesn't mean that you aren't still attached to this thought form that has that belief. It can still influence you even if you don't consider yourself a part of a Christian denomination. 

I'm not saying you should completely drop all Christian beliefs nor am I blaming you for being influenced (even in some small way). I actually have a similar challenge when it comes to my atheist upbringing / mindset. I will (occasionally) still catch myself being influenced by tenets of a mindset that I no longer believe in at all. When I catch something that doesn't feel right, I will stop and compare it against my current beliefs. If it doesn't hold up and especially if I think it is a part of the atheist thought form, I will do my best to avoid that influence. Usually I will try to neutralize it by balancing it mentally with it's opposite concept. Above all I make sure I am consciously aware that the intruding belief is not my actual belief. Personally I find it to be even more helpful to understand why the negative belief I am encountering exists. In your case, please refer to my above theory that that specific belief is there merely to prevent the loss of followers through the discovery of the unity of creation.